✨mcyt oneshots✨

good enough; tommyinnit

prompt: is tommy still not good enough?
request: no
based on good enough by little mix
the next oneshots next weekend will be a fluff christmas oneshots ! <3
c!sbi dream smp
(not meant to be accurate to the lore ! )

I am the diamond you left in the dust
I am the future you lost in the past
Seems like I never compared
Wouldn't notice if I disappeared

ever since tommy was born, he was the outcast. his mother died during childbirth, and it didn't help that his family looked at him like he killed her on purpose. tommy felt like his family wouldn't care if he just... left.

You stole the love that I saved for myself
And I watched you give it to somebody else
But these scars no longer I hide
I've found the light you shut inside
Couldn't love me if you tried

tommy spent most of his childhood watching his father fawn over his two older brothers. it didn't help that one was skilled at fighting, and the other was a wonderful musician. what talents did he have? having a sailor mouth that got him in trouble all the time? he knew his father couldn't love him. why would he?

Am I still not good enough?
Am I still not worth that much?
I'm sorry for the way my life turned out
Sorry for the smile I'm wearing now
Guess I'm still not good enough

the only person tommy had on his side was wilbur, the skilled musician. he was the father figure philza couldnt bother to be. he tried to make tommy feel loved, as he deserved to be, to show him he's good enough.

Does it burn
Knowing I used all the pain?
Does it hurt
Knowing you're fuel to my flame?

tommy and wilbur left when tommy was twelve and wilbur was eighteen. they went out to start a new life, and so they did. they made a new country, l'manburg, with tommy's best friend, tubbo. tommy felt a sense of belonging among the people who wanted to live there. a new family.

Don't look back
Don't need your regrets
Thank God you left my love behind
Couldn't change me if you tried

techno, tommy's other brother, eventually showed up as well. did tommy like it? no, but it made wilbur happy, so he sucked it up. one day, techno pulled tommy aside.

"dad miss you, and so do i. we're sorry for how we treated you growing up."

tommy fumed, "don't regret your actions now. i'm happy with my new family here, and you can tell philza he's not my father, that he doesn't deserve to be called so. not by me. so you can fuck off, im only putting up with you because wilbur want you here."

Am I still not good enough?
Am I still not worth that much?
I'm sorry for the way my life turned out
Sorry for the smile I'm wearing now
Guess I'm still not good enough

techno stood there shocked, "tommy, what more do you want? we apologized. we want to be here for you now, a family again like we should be."

"no, because he's not here to apologize to my face. it doesn't mean shit if it's not from him. plus i grew up feeling like i wasn't good enough, feeling worthless because you and phil shut me out. wilbur tried his best to make me feel included when he could. you guys just didn't give a shit about me, now you can fuck off. i'm done here."

Release your curse
'Cause I know my worth
Those wounds you made are gone
You ain't seen nothing yet
Your love wore thin
And I never win
You want the best
So sorry that's clearly not me
This is all I can be

the next time tommy saw phil was the time he watched him kill his only family he had.

"wilbur!" tommy shouted out as he sobbed, and phil turned to look at his youngest son.

"tommy, im sorry-"

"no! all you ever do is ruin my life! he was my father figure, a father to me when you didn't want to! i'm sorry i'm not talented at anything! i'm sorry i'm not like technoblade who's amazing at fighting, and can figure out how to survive on his own! i'm sorry i'm not like wil, who you just killed! who's amazing at every musical stuff there is! but i'll say this, im not sorry for being myself. and i'm not sorry to say this, fuck you, you're never going to be my father. you don't deserve to be entitled as my father, and i'm not your son. you lost that right a long time ago."

philza stood over his dead son, watching his other son, no, the blonde child walk away, tears steaming down his face. he really fucked up.

Am I still not good enough?
Am I still not worth that much?
I'm sorry for the way my life turned out
Sorry for the smile I'm wearing now

after losing wilbur, his life went to shit. his best friend exiled him, he's being manipulated by his 'only friend', and no one give a shit about him anymore. the only person he has is ghostbur, but he don't remember a whole lot. amazing, right?

guess i'm still not good enough

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i promise promise promise next weekend (25th and 26th of december) will be fluff oneshots !! theyre christmas oneshots !! :D

and sorry it's terrible !! i just love this song, and it remind me of c!tommy!

have a good day/night !

eat some food and drink some water if you haven't !!

love you guys <33