Meraki [poetry]

13.

Living in one of those worlds,
full of lies.
Felt as though the plant creeper,
held my neck to suffocate me to death.
Each day seems to be like the time,
the sky turns all dark but it wouldn't rain.

I kept losing hope and love,
each and every single day.
I regretted being born,
Oh how shameful does that even sound.

you're too young to think like that,
they said.
Was I not too young to endure,
the pain that everyone put me through?

I'd be silent for days,
distancing myself from people who loved me,
because the one person I loved the most,
distanced himself from me.

But I never asked you to do so,
He said.
that's when I knew,
It wouldn't even make a difference if I cried infront of them.
because they had given up on me,
Long back, before I gave up on myself.

What a filthy place it is,
to live here.
And yet again, I wish I was never born,
cause my life's turning gloomy day by day.