The Importance of Love (Lesbian Stories)

Ch. 17: Truth Revealed

I was in shock. My tears felt like bullets as they dropped onto my shirt. "This can't be right" would I explain this to my fiancé Karen. Our wedding is in two months and I completely ruined everything. She'll never wanna see my face again, she'll hate me for the rest of her life. All of our future plans and all of our progress went down the drain, all because of my stupid mistakes.

Casey tried comforting me, she had her arms around me telling me that everything will turn out okay and that she has my back no matter what. I already told her everything about Karen and I and what I did, luckily she understood and gave me advice.

"Look, in all honesty you are in the worst of the worst situations right now," she said. "You did your damage and now here's the price. Karma is real if you didn't know. That girl of yours doesn't seem that bad of a person, and when you love someone you don't go looking for attention from someone else. You wait. If you really love her, you would have waited. Now you have no choice but to tell her, cause it won't be easy hiding the fact that you're pregnant. Your stomach will say it all in less than a month. It's better to tell her now and let her go, you're a good person but she didn't deserve this. Don't beg for forgiveness from her cause trust me she won't forgive you. Not now anyway."

Casey's words really sunk in deep. She was completely right. I'M the one that messed up. Karen shouldn't have to put up with the consequences of my mistakes. It's gonna kill me but I have to let her go. Luckily for me she was home for the week, great.

"Well, how should I tell her.." I asked.

"That, my friend, is on you. You know her way better than I do so its your decision. Just remember the outcome isn't gonna be what you're hoping for."

I agreed, then wiped my tears and started thinking about how I should tell my fiancé that im pregnant with my sideline's bestfriend. Or boyfriend, whatever they are but honestly I didn't care anymore. Aaliyah is still, however, gonna hear my mouth today.

I thanked Casey for everything then she went back to the hotel room she was staying in for the weekend. I made my decision and planned to wait a few days to tell Karen. I wasn't prepared to leave the love of my life.

5 DAYS LATER

"Wake up sunshine."

I rolled over to the edge of the bed and saw Karen, holding a tray which im assuming was for me and some sunflowers.

I sat up in bed and smiled. "Is this for me?"

"Yes beautiful. Just wanted to show you how much I love and appreciate you that's all. Here's your breakfast!" She placed the tray in my lap and under my glass of orange juice was an envelope. "Open it," she said.

Dear Lorena,
Words can't describe the love I have for you but I will try to find the perfect ones to give you a glimps of what it feels like to have you. You've shown me nothing but loyalty these past few years and I can't thank you enough. i know things are hard now and we are barely together, but I promise you that very soon im going to be going local, so I'll be coming home to you every single night. Im so proud of us and how we stuck together through this long ride, but this nothing compared to what we have left. I've been happier than ever with you. How you surprise me with dinner sometimes, how you set up my showers for me, how you call to check up on me and see if im okay, every little thing you do I adore. I want you and us forever until the end of time.
Love, Karen"

I felt my eyes fill up with tears and I couldn't hold them in any longer. They dropped down my face the more I tried holding them in. "How could I have done this to her" I thought. I was stupid. An idiot for ruining this relationship.

"What's wrong baby? I didn't mean to make you cry im so sorry!" She leaned in and wrapped her arms around me and I couldn't help but break down. This was my home and I wanted to stay in her arms forever.

"I, I have to tell you something.." I said while sobbing. My heart was breaking into pieces as the seconds went by.

"What is it what's wrong?" She said.

"I'm.. I'm.."

"You're what?"

It was time to face my biggest fear of losing the love of my life. "Im, pregnant.."

Silence filled the room for a few long seconds. The only thing I wanted now was to know every thought that was going through her mind. "Talk.." I said.

"You're kidding me right?"

"No, Karen im not.. But just please let me expl-"

"So you mean to tell me im out there every week busting my ass for YOU, to make YOU happy and you just do this to me Lorena? Please tell me you're joking!"

"Karen please let me explain!" I broke down into tears again. "Look im sorry! Im an idiot and I'll never forgive myself for this! There was this girl, from campus and I don't know but we went to a party and she had a Bestfriend and I was drunk and he took advantage of me I swear that's what happened!"

She looking at me with a blank face as her eyes began to fill with tears. "I can't believe you.." Was all she said.

"Please believe me Karen I never meant for any of this to happen. I cheated, I know and I know this is hard to believe now but you're the only girl I NEED. I don't know what else to say I know you hate my guts now.."

She said nothing. The tears gently rolled down her face as she nodded her head in disappointment. I put my tray on the other side of the bed and tried hugging her, but she resisted. "Don't touch me," She said, "I never wanna see you again. It's over Lorena.."

My heart dropped. I had an empty sort of feeling in my stomach, like half of me was trying to escape me. "This can't be real" i though, "I can't be losing her.."

I didn't say a word because I knew it would just make things worse. She left the house, and all I could do after that was roll over and cry. I cried and cried for a good hour just thinking about all the anger and regret that filled me. I hated Aaliyah. I hated Messiah. I hated my stupid job and my stupid classroom and my stupid laptop and my stupid car. I hated everything. But most of all I hated myself.

I got up from bed and threw on a Tshirt and jeans, grabbed my keys and hopped into my car. I drove straight to Aaliyah's house. My eyes were still red and a little puffy from crying but I didn't care, she was still gonna hear my words.

When I pulled into the driveway i walked straight to her front door. I knocked for a good minute until she finally opened up.

"What a suprise to see you here." She said sarcastically. I pushed her out the way and stormed into the living room.

"How could you do this to me! We were fine Aaliyah why did you have to go to the extent to bring Messiah into this! Im pregnant now!!! Thanks to you and your little games! This was SOOO unecessary. I lost everything now especially Karen. We were getting married in less than two months and now look! Everything's ruined thanks to you!!"

She stayed quiet for a moment then laughed. "Karen? You mean my EX, Karen?" She laughed even more. "Do you not remember? Karen left ME for YOU back in high school! She swore to me that you two were just bestfriends, nothing more but then one day I see the both of you holding hands. Kissing in the hallway. Without her telling me anything. I wasn't a pretty, good looking girl okay. I was the ugly one with braces and glasses who didn't know how to use make up. Karen made me feel special and beautiful, until you came along and took all of that away from me! I had no option but to get revenge. It took me 8 long years but I did it, I finally broke you two apart. Now Messiah and I can live OUR lives in peace. He's been so supportive through all of this, im still suprised he agreed to getting you pregnant as revenge. He's even better than Karen."

I had no words. I was furious, full of anger that was just bursting to get out. Tears filled my eyes once again. I ran out the house and locked myself in the car. I couldn't believe any of this...