~ I Will Bury You

~ 𝒶 𝓈𝒶𝒸𝓇𝒾𝒻𝒾𝒸𝑒 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝓌𝒽𝒶𝓉? ~

~ I am not the shooting star you felt special for witnessing

I am not the quiet spot at the end of a house in a gathering event

You were never searching for me, you just lost a piece of yourself and can't find it still 

I thought I needed to become a better candidate

Like "darling, what do you bring to the table?"

Please I ain't here to serve you bitch

If I don't know you, I can't love you and I shouldn't have you

I only my parents knew

The formula that got us screwed

I spent half my life in my head and on my bed

Lonely because my spark is sought to be killed

If I find a gem under a blanket of grass in the mystical forest of my dreams I should bury it deeper

Making the road to my happiness steeper

Serving reasons to satiate my insecurity-feeder

I want to set myself on fire

I want to burn all that I have become

A Pheonix and the Pheonix must live and should never seek completion

A Phoenix made from hell to live in it until there is no reason for its sacrifice

Thought my right to speak was pulled away because I have become such a shame

I didn't know how to live anymore

I'm paralyzed by my fear of making bad decisions

Imagine another human looking down at me! Oh, the power they have over me!

 Imagine not being able to defend yourself and having to live with someone else's idea of you.

"Will I ever know if what I did was right?"

"Is there a perfect way to live life?"

What if I hurt you and I am thee unforgiven?

Who will set me free from the prison you have left me in?

I am not here to speak words of wisdom

I am here to be heard because I happened

Like the storm unwelcomed

The harsh waves, the grey stone, and the lighthouse is dead and the weak must be gone you said