Keeping Secrets

Chapter 11

"A letter?" She asks leaning forward. I've spiked her interest now.

"Yeah." I breathe out. "I had written a long letter, it was meant for my brother Parker." I tell her as I glance at the moniter. I can see both Parker and the officer are intrigued by my words.

"And how does this letter play into everything?"

"I had the letter hidden. I was still working on it." I start. "Kyle managed to find it and he used it against me."

"Use it against you?" She asks, confusion evident in her tone.

"He threatened to show the letter to Parker if I didn't let him..Have his way, with me." I explain, the anxiety exploiding in my stomach.

"I don't understand. You said the letter was for your brother, didn't you?"

"I did." I nod. "It wasn't a normal letter though. The letter was written over a year before the rape. Kyle had found it when I was still writing. Then a year later is when he used it against me. He had held onto it."

"So the letter was a year old." She says, still trying to put the pieces together in her head. "I still don't understand. How did this letter, become a big enough threat to you that it made you keep quite?" She asks.

"What was the letter about?" And there was the question I was dreading.

I glance over at the moniter. Parker is sitting on the edge of his seat, waiting for my answer.

"I-I..I can't." I say panicking. I can't tell her with Parker listening. She glances over at the moniter and I can see when realization sets in.

"Excuse me for a minute." She says nodding at me. She exits the room and moments later, appears on the moniter. She shares a few words with Parker, I can't hear them. He rises from his seat and they exit the room.

As she re-enters the room I'm in, I see Parker walking behind her, throwing me a questioning look. I look away quickly as she closes the door and retakes her seat across from me.

"Better now?" She asks me and I nod in response.

"Let's continue then, shall we?" She asks, picking her pen back up.

"I'm sorry. I just need a second." I breathe. "I've never told anyone this piece of the story before."

"It's okay. This is a safe place." She tells me.

"I just, I couldn't let my brother know about this. I didn't want anyone to know." I say quietly.

"I understand. It's a hard thing to have to live with. You already went through this and now you have to practically relive it all." She says.

"Exactly." I whisper.

"This letter. It scares you." She states. No questions about it, I guess my feelings are showing through.

"I was in a dark place. I had moved on from that part of my life though, I was getting so much better." I say shaking my head.

"I'm not the same girl who wrote that letter. I've changed. You need to understand that." I plead with her. I can't have her looking at me like I'm crazy.

"It would be so much easier for you to read it. Kyle still has though, as far as I know anyway.." I huff out in annoyance.

"Well we'll make sure to get a warrant to find the letter if he doesn't willingly give it to us." She explains.

"As for right now, I need you to tell me what that letter was about Opal." She sighs.

"It was a suicide letter." I whisper. I can see her stiffen in her seat.