Keeping Secrets

Chapter 8

I'm sorry about earlier. I know you didn't want me to tell them. You need to understand though Opal. I can't lie about something like that and if you really think that I'm the one to blame, then you're wrong. I was not the only one in this relationship..Or was I? Please Correct Me If I'm Wrong! - Jesse

Is he serious right now? I can't believe him. I obviously know that he wasn't the only one participating but it wasn't a relationship. I didn't think of it as a relationship. I had feelings for Jesse but not the kind he has towards me. I can't see myself with him, I can't see myself with anyone right now. Not with what I did to poor Danny. I'm to unstable to be in a relationship. It just doesn't work, I have too much going on.

I am not doing this right now! I'm not going to argue with you tonight! I have so much going on in my life right now. I'm sorry Jesse but I guess we both just have to face the facts! What happened between us, WAS A MISTAKE! - Opal

I send the message and tears are now blurring my vision. I sit on my porch crying for the next four minutes before Kyle pulls in the driveway. I don't move, when he parks, I just continue crying.
And let's get some things straight here, I'm crying because I'm mad, mad at myself. this whole mess is because of me! This just keeps happening, I just keep ruining everything.

"Opal. What's wrong?" Kyle says getting out of his car after turning it off and sitting down next to me. He pulls me into a hug and starts rubbing circles my back.

"Stop! Stop It!" I say as I scwerm from his touch.

"You can't be nice! I'm supposed to hate you!" I yell at him in between my sobs, as I start hitting him on the chest.

"Opal." He says calmly as he tries to get me to stop.

'Opal!" He repeats with a more stern tone this time. I should stop but I can't. I want him to feel my pain. This all started with him anyways, didn't it?

"OPAL!" He yells at me. When I don't comply he yanks me up off the step and throws me to the ground. Luckily I hit the grass.

"Get Away!" I scream pain pain shoots up through my arm. I feel so weak as I try crawling away army style.

"You fucking bitch!" He yells grabbing me by the ankle and pulling me back towards him. He pulls me further and I kick him in the face.

"OW!!!" He hollars in pain, falling back. I manage to get to my feet and start running.

He gets back up and heads after me. "Get back here!" He yells a few steps behind me, quickly catching up.

"NO! NO! PLEASE HE-!" I start to scream for help as he yanks me back by my hair. He swings me around to face him and I can see his fist coming towards my face.

Everything goes black.

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"Why do you always ruin everything?"

"I should've never stopped you from ending your life!"

"No one even likes you! Parker would have forgotten about you in a week!"

"They'd all be better off without you."

"You're such a fucking waste of space."

"I just want you to leave my mind but you won't! Why won't you leave my fucking thoughts alone!"

"I hope you never wake up."

"You just had to go and make everything difficult!" I can hear someone ranting as I start to come too.

"WAKE UP!" They scream at me. I'm in so much pain right now.

"Opal!"

"Why Opal? WHY?! Why'd you have to do that!?" He screams and I open my eyes to see I'm laying on my bed and Kyle is pacing the floor.