I Won't Hold Back (MBBII#2)

Chapter 1 ROBOT

I WON'T HOLD BACK
Written by: SHYWINGS

JECA'S POV

8:00pm ako ng matapos sa pag eempake ng mga damit at mga iba pang mga kailangan konga mga gamit ng may tumawag ulit sa celllphone ko at ng sagutin ko iyon ay boses agad ni Von ang sumalubong sa akin.

"Hey Jecs, i missed you already." Wala sa sariling napa irap ako ng mahalata ko sa boses nya na naka inom sya.

"You're drunk again." Natawa naman sya sa sinabi ko, minsan talaga ayaw ko sa Hobie nya na pag inom, aside from his atitude when he's drunk, it's also bad for the health.

"Woah is that a question or a statement?" sabay tawa nya ng bahagya.

"Obviously it's a statement, by the way since na tumawag kana, may sasabihin ako sayo."

"What is it?" He asked.

"I need to go back in the Philippines." Ilang sandali pa ang lumipas bago sya mag salita sa kabilang linya.

"Why? Is there any problem?" he asked again.

"Yeah, and don't ask anything about coz' i'm not gonna tell it to you" And as a cue, i ended up the line.

I rested my my back at the headboard and i closed my eye.

As much as i want to have a relationship, i don't know why i am holding my self back, there is something that's stoping me, and i don't know what it is.

And i laughed at my own taught, why am i thinking about relationship, and there. My dad. He is in the hospital, and i'm sure if Charles didn't call. I wouldn't know anything about my Dad's condition.

Napa tigil ako sa pag sesenti ng may kumatok sa pinto ko at ag taka naman ako dahil sa ganitong oras ay wala ng umiistorbo sa akin.

"Come in." Ng mag bukas ang pinto ko ay ang mayordoma na si Silvia ang nabungadan ko, Silvia is not a filipina, she is Black american and all i can say that she is very very loyal and Honest and that's what i like about her.

"Ma'am you have a visitor, its sir Von your suitor ma'am." I just nod at her and wave my hand as the cue that she may leave.

Inaamin ko na hindi ako katulad ng iba na close sa mga empleyado ko at mga katulong sa bahay, i act and treat them in professional way, because my Mom said, if treat them as my family and as my friend it will be only my destruction so i listened to her, and she is right, i became more successful without friends. Because she said i don't need a friend, and she is the only one that i can treat as my Family.

"Love and friends will be your Destruction, and it will be your greatest downfall"

Sinuot ko muna ang aking roba at kumabas ng aking kwarto, hindi ako nag madali dahil sanay na naman si Von na mag intay sa akin kaya dahan dahan lang akong nag lakad papunta sa kanya.

Dumaresto na ako sa veranda dahil doon sya laging naka tambay. At hindi nga ako nag kamali dahil andoon nga sya, prenteng naka upo at nag sisigarilyo habang naka tulala kung saan.

Yes he smokes.

"Anong ginagawa mo dito?" Agad syang humarap sa akin at agad binaksak ang sigarilyong hawak nya sabay inapakan, napa kunot naman ang noo ko sa ginawa nya, kahit lagi nyang ginagawa iyon ay hindi padin ako masanay sanay.

"Ang hot mo pakinggan kapag mag tagalog ka." Ganyan sya palagi, nagiging slang at mali mali mag tagalog kapag naka inom.

"At mukha kang tanga kapag nag ta-tagalog." Pairap na sabi ko sa kanya pero alam naman nyang biro lang 'yon.