A Betrayal [on-going]

Chapter 13: Time

It's hard to pretend that you're fine faking every smile. Waking up every day even you just want to lay in bed all night. Waiting for 'something' to happen and change everything.  I had that... I have him Javi. He gives me a new reason to smile inspiration to wake up every day.  He's my reason...

"Love nandito na tayo," hinawakan niya ang muka ko para makuha ang atensyon ko. Nasa tapat na pala kami ng school ko.

"Thank you see you later Love," pababa na sana ako pero hinawakan nya ang braso ko para pigilan.

"Are you okay?" Tanong niya.

"Yes iniisip ko lang yung exams that's all." sagot ko

"Everything will be fine I believe in you," he kissed my forehead before letting me go.

I need to set my mind on our exam next week but I can't... no it's more like I don't want to. I want to be with Javi that's all  my mind is screaming kahit nasa tabi ko naman siya palagi.

"Alex ayaw mo ba sumama sa overnight namin sama sama tayong mag pupuyat for the exam?" bungad sakin ni Clarence pag pasok ko ng room.

"Hindi kayo na lang," sagot ko at pumunta na sa upuan ko.

Puro pahabol na lesson at review na lang ang ginagawa namin this week. Prelim exams dati kinakatakotan ko pero ngayon kahit ito na ang huli I don't know wala na akong paki alam. If any one is in my position I think they will understand.

The exhaustion that you can feel all over you wondering when will it stop. And the only thing you can do is pretend. 

From: My Javi

Love baka ma late ako umuwi may tataposin pa kaming project. I can ask Kobe na ihatid ka.

But I want to see you...

To: My Javi

No may review din naman kami so no worries. Love you Ingat.

From: My Javi

Okay, Love ingat kayo. Love you.

After class umuwi na ako and clean the house. I find the file na akala ko mag liligtas sakin. Then I just got my phone and messeage her to meet up. Nag luto na rin ako para kay Javi at nag iwan ng note na mag oovernight kami for review.

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Pumunta na ako sa bar na napili nya na para mag kita kami. Tinuro naman ako ng mga body graud niya na umakyat sa private room.

"I gues di ko na kailangan mag pakilala," sabi ko ng pag upo ko.

"Yes, we don't have much time kaya say what you need. Money? How much?" mahinahon na wika niya

"I don't need anything from that man. Baka ikaw pa ang may kailangan sa akin." Sagot ko at nilapag ang envilope.

"What's that?"

"Our Freedom.. that is if you want to be free." I ended our conversation with that.

Pag uwi ko na dito na si Javi mukang pagod na pagod sya at sa sofa na siya naka tulog. Nakita ko sa laptop niya na inaasikaso n'ya ang small bussiness namin at sa tablet naman ang reviewer nya.