How Did We End Up Here

Chapter 30

I watch him dazed and its like when our eyes meet, we're trapped. This time I can't say I'm the victim, he loved me, he cared for me like no one else, he promised me he'd be there and that sadness was merely fiction when I'm with him. But I became this selfish little bitch and ran off to someone who didn't care for me. Someone who he cheated on me just the mere second I went to another room. They say you can't choose who you love, but every bone in my body knows I should be with Caspar.

I watch him swiftly put his arm around some girl with a black bob cut that bounces with her ever move. She has a broad smile that simply spells beauty. She looks more happy than I've ever been in my whole life. Her blue eyes glimmer as she glances at me, I'm almost blind by the proximity of them.

I could never be that pretty.

He takes a seat next to her and I watch sadly as they both ogle at each other, I scoff silently and throw my face away. All I want to know is why he'd start rumors about me. I don't even know why Luke would tell him I got hurt. Caspar is the last person on earth Luke'll go to.

Unless

no it just can't be.

It might

Caspar would never hurt me like that

I'm caught of short with my thoughts when my teacher walks in, guess I'd just have to find out the old fashion way.

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I stake out in the janitor room, watching everyone who once idolized me pass by. Now they think I'm a hooker or I got raped. I don't even know which is worse all I know is I really don't like it. And what kills me the most is the fact that its the person I once thought could bring me out into the light, that's drawing me back into the shadows. Once I see him, he's alone. Mop hair bouncing he still has the same look, that look that makes you think he's just your regular gentleman. I pull him by the arm into the closet and he doesn't flinch a muscle. I'm guessing he was kinda expecting it to be me. "V you're pretty and all, but I have a girlfriend." He smirks as he cocks his head to the side.

"Why on earth are you telling people I'm some, some dear I say it, prostitute. That got stabbed while she was 'on the job'. How do you even know anything about this." I glare at him. He nonchalantly swings his arm around my neck and grins at me. This grin that I know all too well.

"Oh don't worry about that kitten, there's nothing you can do about it now."

After school, Luke comes to pick me up. He had a recording today and couldn't come to school. Oh how lucky he is. As I head out the school building, I don't make eye contacts with anyone. When I spot his car, I see Abby and Chloe with long faces and Ashton standing in the middle of both of them. And I automatically know what's wrong. "When did she break up with you?" I ask coldly. He lifts his chin up an looks me in the eye. "Like three mintues ago." I dont wait for his next words instead I just put my arms around him hoping he'd understand what I'm trying to pass on with this simple display of affection. I want him to understand that I'm gonna be there, that its not the end of the world. That I will do anything it takes to help him get better.

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"Isn't weird?" Ashton thinks to himself while looking around the open feild and then at the stars that illuminate this midnight air. "What's weird?" He stays silent focusing his gaze at the sky. "How far apart the stars are but yet they're still one? And how weird it is with all the drama in this world, its still in one piece." He glances to me for the first time in our conversation. "Does that give me a little hope that even though Navea broke up with me she and, she and I could still be together? V I need her. I need her to see another day, she's what keeps me going. I don't know what I'm gonna do anymore..." He says all in a rush as his eyes go wide, his breath seizes. I put my arm around him and let him rest his head inbetweem my collar.