I am found by him

Dear God(2021)

Hi God,

8 days left before 2022. 5 days before Christmas.

This year was the hardest.
Unexpected events.
Breakdown.
Doubting my worth.
Heartbreaking.
Doubting to God
Felt lonely
Days of unsure of the future.

Even in the darkest times, God never fails to show how great he is and reminds me that his plans are better than our plans.

God, I never fail to pray for the safety and health of my loved ones, especially my family. You know how I begged for you, to change my father's heart and let us be with him again.

I'm happy because you used Pastor Atoy to be an instrument to my papa. This year was the lowest point of my papa. I also saw that he is fragile and pressured at everything. I really don't know what's really happened to him but I know how sorry was my papa.

Nagkasakit din si papa, hindi ko po alam kung covid pa or ibang sakit. Nawalan din siya ng pag-asa non, masasakit na salita din ang kanyang narinig. Maraming tao ang hindi naniniwala sakanya but here I am, never losing hope that you have a great plan for him. God, heal him please. I know that no one is impossible to you.

God, alam niyo din yung panahon na kapag may kumakatok sa bahay, na papraning na siya.Dumating sa punto na hindi nila inaasahan na mangyari. Ninong jojo was already dead last oct 4,2021. And I was feel bad for him because he didn't have chance to encounter how Great are you and at the same time, I feel bad for my papa because salo niya lahat. His friends berayed him. Nagtago na din si Engr. Ronald yung batang lalaki. May times din na ako and nagbabayad ng utang ni papa. Ang daming utang ni papa just to provide our needs.

I don't what's on the mind of my father but I know that nagsisisi siya and yung mga kasalanan at kalokohan niya before ngayon siya nagsusuffer. Nagulat din ako sa ginawa ni papa na sinangla yung bahay namin sa maraming tao kasama si JOJO. I know na intensyon nila yun but hindi ko kayang magalit ng tuluyan kay papa because I know that he's trying to provide our needs. Nagkaroon din siya ng covid.

Grabe din yung ayaw nila mama ngayong 2021, sobrang nasaktan at nanghina din si mama sa nalaman na yun. July 2021 lumipat din kami ng bahay dito sa ecoverde and hindi pa din kami bayad ng monthly sa pag-ibig which is 10k a month.

August 6, 2021

Nagkaroon ako ng part-time job, kinuha ako ng boss ni mama para matulungan din si papa. which is Social Media Manager, madaming struggles akong naranasan pero I'm thankful kase nakatulong yun sa pag grow ko. Sobrang thankful ako kay God kase I disocevered freelancing 2020, days of learning and hindi ko alam kung saan ako magsisimula then ngayong 2021, bigla akong kinuha kahit mababa ang sweldo atleast natetest yung skills ko at the same time naggrogrow ako. Talagang dinala ako ni God sa career path na gusto ko. 2020 din kasi nagbago yung pananaw at mindset ko sa lahat ng aspect ng buhay lalo na sa paghandle ng pera.

Saamin naman ni Dux, nawala din kame nung april tapos ang-usap ulit nung july until now. I'm still praying na sana siya na and mas lalo ko siyang minamahal.

-Reassurance, bare minimum, self-worth

September 23, 2021

Nawala ako ng work kay sir Aljein, binenta niya din saakin yung computer nya. Nakailang alok na din maging financial advisor ako pero naka oo na ako kay ate pam. Isa si ate pam, ang aspire na nakilala ko nung 2020. malaki ang naitulong nila saakin, naniniwala ako na there's something about ate pam, alam kong magiging malaking part siya sa buhay ko and magiging instrumento siya.

I know that there's a phase in our life that we don't know what's really happening and we will feel that we are stagnant and not progressing but God wants us to remind us that we are always growing.

2020

-discovered freelancing

- Change of mindset

- Want to be a Financial Advisor

2021

- Have work as SMM

- Ate pam offered me to be part of her team (December)

2022

- Licensed Financial Advisor