It's Not Just A Spice

Away

It's Tuesday. He leaves on Sunday. This isn't fair. Yesterday he told me he was moving, I basically have not been able to stop crying sense then. I'm heartbroken and I don't know what to do. Ugh. I think I've called Emily a total of 17 times, the same time just crying and asking her how to make this feeling go away. She was helpful until about 1 in the morning and just said "go to bed you need sleep and I need sleep" and hung up. Today at school was terrible. I tried to stay away from him cause I didn't need him or anyone else in the school to see me cry. That plan did not work out so well. I walked to school and pretty much avoided him all the way up until lunch. At lunch I went and sat with Emily, Gage, Maggie, mason, Lindsay, and Ralph, Aly, Ansel, Gabe, and Natalie. Everything was good except I was on the end, so it was easy for Edward to talk to me when he came over and sat with us, oh my was that great. I could feel myself about to cry. I looked at him and then turned back to my friends as they were talking about what would happen if he were on an island, (hehe inside joke).
"Well me and Gage and stay together" Emily said with enthusiasm.
"During language arts I'll make a list. I don't pay attention in there anyway" Natalie always liked doing things like this. That made Me laugh. And then Edward reached down and grabbed my hand and intertwined our fingers. That's when it happened. I totally broke down, right there in front of everyone. Emily got up and grabbed my arm and basically pulled out of thence room into the bathroom. I slid down the wall and into the floor.
"What is going on" Emily said as she sat on the ground with me. "I just I can't see him go" I said as I was sobbing into her shoulder. "Well I wasn't supposed to tell you but he needs to ask you something" I could tell she was trying to make me feel better. I stood up and made my face look better, I wiped off all the makeup that had run down, and I splashed cold water on my face so that my eyes weren't so puffy. I went back in the lunch room and sat back down and had realized Edward had left. I felt my phone buzz in my pocket and checked it. It was Edward "after school meet my at 4th street." That's like a block away.
Lunch ended and nothing else had happened until I got to 4th street.

I walked to 4th street and was greeted by Edward. I held back tears and then they just went away. We stood there and talked about where to walk to.
"So where would you like to go today my dear" Edward said with his deep voice. It only makes it better that he looks down at me cause he's so much taller than me. "I don't care, as long as I'm with you" I said, and I leaned on him and held his hand. And we just started walking, away from school away from our houses, away from everything. It was great. "I could do this forever" I told him "I could too" he said in return. And we looked at each other and he bent down and kissed me. This moment was amazing. And it was also making it that much harder for me to let him go. After about a minute we pulled apart and just looked at each other. "Let's do it then" he said. I looked at him in that 'what the hell are you talking about' face. I guess he caught on cause then he kind of laughed a little and said " no I mean let's run away, keep this forever" and I looked at him. " you know we can't do that, we have school and other things and people here we can't leave. I could leave Emily or Natalie or Gabe or Ansel or mason or Lindsay or Maggie or Aly or Ralph, and I can't leave Emily without her wanting to bring Gage" I said with kind of a whine tone in my voice. "Fine bring them with us then, I just really don't want to leave you, and maybe if we leave together it'll all be okay" he smiled as he said it and hugged me. As we were hugging he whispered to me "I'll never let you go" and I almost started crying but not because I was sad, because I had never been this happy. I looked at him "when do we tell the others and leave?" I asked impatiently. "Well now would probably be a good time" he said in response. "Okay great meet me at my house in two hours" I said and I kissed him on the cheek and ran home.

I called Emily and told her and she said she would call Gage and they would be over in an hour. I called Lindsay who said she would call Ralph and they would be there asap. I called mason and Maggie who said the same thing. Aly and Ansel were going to be at my house in an hour and a half. Natalie said she was coming asap. Gabe said he would catch a ride with Natalie. Soon enough everyone was at my house and we were waiting for Edward. We decided Edward would drive 4 of us, and Natalie would drive 4. And Aly and Ansel would drive 4. We even made a list (Natalie's idea of course).
Car 1: Edward, Me, Emily, Gage
Car 2: Natalie, Gabe, Lindsay, Ralph
Car 3: Aly, Ansel, Maggie, Mason
When Edward got there everyone threw their stuff in their designated cars and we left. We left everything else behind, it was just us on our own now. Everyone was following Edward sense he must've known where we were going. I didn't really care anymore. So we cranked up the music and off we went.

We had been driving for about 2 hours, we were almost to the border of Oregon going into Idaho. We had decided that we would drive to Illinois cause I mean Chicago. So that's where we were headed. It was also close to 9. And our designated drivers were getting tired, so we decided that we would stop at a motel for the night. The couples, which were Edward and I, Emily and Gage, Aly and Ansel, Mason and Maggie, Lindsay and Ralph stayed together. Which then left Natalie and Gabe who shared a room but Natalie made Gabe sleep on the floor. We went up to our rooms.

Me and Edward got into our room. This was the first time either of us had been in a room just ourselves, with a bed. Obviously this wasn't a great looking place but it would do until we left in the morning. "I'm going to go down and grab our bags I'll be right back" Edward said and then he left. I started thinking about this. We could have some fun. I mean it is just us. And I bet some of the others are too, besides Natalie and Gabe. He came back but I must have been really focused on what I was thinking about cause I didn't hear him come in. I was sitting on the bed, and when he came in he came and sat behind me, wrapped his arms around my waist, and started kissing my neck, I guess he had the same idea I had. I turned around so we were facing each other. This was a different feeling. His lips slammed into mine, all I did was push back into his, this was different than anything else we had done. All I thought was that I wanted more. His hands slipped under my shirt and he pulled it off. I started running my hands through his hair, then I pulled off his shirt too. I needed more. He turned me over and flopped me on the bed, his face was inches above mine, and then everything happened at once, sooner or later we were both fully unclothed and he was inside me. I loved it. My hands making scratch marks on his back and an arch In my back, he knew what he was doing was right. And he didn't turn back. He looked at me and said "so is this what you wanted?" A smirk on his face. All I did was reach up and pulled his neck down so I could kiss him and tell him that now it was my turn.

That was a night I will never forget