Tubbo pov:
"We need tickets to that!" Nikki shouted
"I'm so fooking down!" Minx added
"Tubbo?.. do you want to go?" Shawn asked glancing towards me
I was in a trance, all I could think about was Ranboo. And the endermen performing at that disco, where I met the love of my life
"Uh- yeah sure whatever" I rolled my eyes
"I'm just going to go back to my room for a bit ok?" I said as I got up from the booth to leave
"You ok tubs?" Shawn asked
"Yeah I just- I just need to clear my head" I smiled and waved goodbye
I wasn't lying.
When I got back to my room I laid on my bed and released a long sigh
I grabbed my phone and started scrolling through old photos.
Some were of shawns band, since we all live together it only seemed right.
But then I went further down the rabbit hole.
And then I saw the photos I had with ranboo.
It was so hard to not think of him, and whenever I managed to get out of my own mind trap I was pulled back in with either a song from the endermen, or a dumb fucking announcement that they were doing another concert
I knew Ranboo wouldn't even be there. But it hurt me to my core
I missed him so much, I knew that seeing him again would lead me to cry into a pillow, even if it was just in a photo
We looked so happy
I could never be that happy again
I decided I'd at least but my sadness to good use.
So I grabbed my- ranboos guitar and started plucking at the strings
Then I began to sing
The day after you said goodbye
All I did was lay in bed and cry
But after one month, I started to move on
And after two, I felt alright
Then three months in, you were off my mind
And month four and five, I was living my life
I was better and didn't have to try
Not to think of you, 'til you reached out
And said, "Remember that night?"
We went for a drive, 2:30 in the morning
I kissed you, it was pouring
We held each other tight before the night was over
You looked over your shoulder
Oh, I was doing fine
You said, "Remember that night?
Remember that night?"
Oh, I was doing fine
You said, "Remember that night?
Remember that night?"
The day after you had reached out
I was broken for the second time around
I prayed on the third day that I would be okay
That I'd forget you were ever mine
Oh, I don't think you realize
How long I had to fight to be living my life
To get better and never have to try
Not to think of you until you reached out
And said, "Remember that night?"
We went for a drive, 2:30 in the morning
I kissed you, it was pouring
We held each other tight before the night was over
You looked over your shoulder
Oh, I was doing fine
You said, "Remember that night?
Remember that night?"
Oh, I was doing fine
You said, "Remember that night?
Remember that night?"
We went for a drive, 2:30 in the morning
I kissed you, it was pouring
We held each other tight before the night was over
You looked over your shoulder
Oh, I was doing fine
You said, "Remember that night?
Remember that night?"
Oh, I was doing fine
You said, "Remember that night?
Remember that night?"
By the time I put the guitar down I noticed Shawn staring at me from the doorway
"Ranboo again?" He asked and I nodded
He opened his arms out silently asking me for a hug and I graciously accepted, slightly sobbing into his chest
"I miss him" I cried
"I know... maybe getting those tickets is a bad idea" Shawn whispered
"NO! It'll be good for the band. And a fun experience" I mumbled, loud enough for him to hear
"Do you think he's ok?" I asked
"Who? Ranboo?" He asked and I once again nodded into his chest
"I'm sure he's doing great. But missing you of course. He definitely thinks about you every night" Shawn smiled
"You think?" I asked
"Oh I know! You're unforgettable" he added
"Thanks Shawn"
"Anytime Tubbo"
