Ranboo pov:
After telling Gwen the story I was pretty shaken up.
All those memories and feelings coming back to me in a swift motion sent my body into a whirl
"Hey it's ok" Gwen smiled m, holding my hand
"If I'm being honest you didn't do anything wrong. You were looking out for your relationship... and if I'm being honest I don't think what you did would've put him in hospital let alone kill him"
I smiled at Gwen, I could feel tears begin to swell on my eyes but I ignored it
"Do you know what you need?" Gwen lead on and I hummed in response
"A night out... there's this new karaoke club opening and we should go, my sister is going aswell so I can introduce you" she said
I thought about it for a minute. On the one hand, my almost crippling social anxiety would stop me from having a good time, but on the other hand... I could do with the drink.
"Yeah sure...when are we going?" I asked
"Tomorrow" she replied
"Alright... I'm gonna go on my break now" I said getting up to leave
Before I did Gwen said my name and pulled me in for a hug. It felt nice, meaningful and I knew I needed it.
"Thanks Gwen" I whispered as the hug broke, then she smiled at me as I left the building
When I left I didn't really know where I was going, I wasn't hungry so I didn't need to go to a cafe or Anything
And I didn't have enough time to fully enjoy myself. So instead I went to the local park and sat down, allowing myself to take in the view and the peaceful serenity of the environment
My head went empty, and it felt nice, to not have a million thoughts running around my head a minute
Gwen helped me out more than I could have ever thought
I hadn't felt this at peace since...
Since-
Tubbo
My breath got caught in my throat when I thought of him, his beautiful porcelain skin and his fluffy black hair. He was the most mesmerising person on the world
And I lost him
Does he still think of me?
If I saw him would he say hello?
Or would he hate me for what I did. Leaving him, all because of something I did
There it was again, my mind running away from me.
And I'm always to tired to try and keep up
It leads to more issues than it solves but I can't seem to stop it
But everything halted in a second, it felt like the world stood still
When I heard a voice behind me
"Ranboo. How ya been?"
