The winters lover (BuckyxMaddie Salvatore) BOOK 1

30: emotionaless...

I stare back at the scar in my mirror with terror. "Maddie so i was thinking we should-" Steve says watching me stare at my scar. He pauses as I show absolutely no emotion...but forcing back tears. I run my finger down my side we're the scar is slowly. I try to keep in all of my emotion but then I can't...feels like loud noises in my head and overwhelming sense of grief. I keep thinking back to when I got shot. And loosing my baby. I then punch my mirror shattering it now looking into a broken mirror. I shake the blood off my hand. "Madison." Steve says running over grabbing my arms hugging me as I tried to punch it again. "Ahhhhhh!" I scream in pain. Mentally and physically. I scream and cry into Steve shoulder.
STEVES POV
"Ahhhhh!" Maddie screams in pain. I grab her arms preventing her from any further damage. I pull her to the ground hugging her as she kept crying. "Let it out." I say leaning back to grab a towel wrapping her hand. "My baby...he's gone." She says crying. He? She knew the gender? How? Not important right now Steve! "We heard a shat-" bucky and Nat say running in to see Maddie crying into my shoulder and a white towel now red. They freeze and I point to the mirror shattered. Bucky rubs his face and runs over and trades places with me. I look at Nat who looks worried . "Um worried about her." Nat says as I pull her out of the room. "Same. She just punched a mirror." I say. "This will pass...right?" Nat asked. "Yes...will take time." I say believing myself.
Maddies pov
I keep crying into buckys shoulder. "Maddie I know...but you need to calm down." Bucky says grabbing things Steve put in the room and left the two of us in my room door locked and closed. Bucky removed the towel and starts cleaning the wound. "I don't know what to do..." I say crying. He sits me in his lap and works on my hand. "It's hard...trust me I know...but you can't go around punching mirrors...I'm sorry but that's not gonna bring him back." Bucky told me..tough love. "Ah." I flinch as he put some antibacterial thing on my cut. "It just feels good. To hit the shit out of things." I say as he wraps up by hand. "Trust me I get it...but you won't be for a week." He told me. "I just can't catch a break. I mean my parents died for me. My best friend died in my arms. And I lost my child." I say trying not to cry. "I can't cry I'm sick of crying." I say smiling to prevent crying. "It's better. That means you can feel. I went through a time where I couldn't. It took abs is taking a long time to get back from that Maddie." He says. "Now let's get ready." He says. Then I hear glass break. Then shouting. "What's all th-" I say as Bucky covers my mouth. "WHERE IS SHE?!" A man Commands. We both look at the window but it's to high. I know whoever is out there wants me. We run into my room and lock the door. We hear screams but Bucky doesn't want me out there. So he's not going anywhere either. "I ASKED WHERE IS THE "TRIBRID?" He yells. I sit and here screams. Why do they want me? Who's there? And who's screaming. My door then bust open.