A Flower in the Wind

SIMPLE CONTRADICTORIES

I wake up with this feeling in the bottom of my soul

I need you to understand how all-consuming,

The despair that makes my bones ache

I need everything stop

I don't want to die

I promise I don't

I need help that I simply can not receive if I ever hope to know my daughter

If I got the help I needed...

They wouldn't hesitate to put my daughter in real, long term, honest to earth, danger

They would condemn me for simply getting help

So I may do my daughter right for the rest of her life

I am not healthy

I can not function

I can only bear the daggers when I am loving and caring for my daughter

I know that if anything were to happen to her I simply would not be able to go on

It truly feels like drowning

I wake up and I fall asleep with this bone-crushing feeling

I simply do not feel the will to live nor the audacity to die.

+++++This is a work of fiction. Any similarity to actual persons, living or dead, or +++++ +++++++++++++++actual events, is purely coincidental.+++++++++++++++