Say We Will Fly {Saywecanfly fanfiction}

Five

"Ms. Taylor may I speak to you in the hall?" Doctor Hodge Asked me

It was now Wednesday and Braden and I were all packed and ready to go back to his house, since I was never going back to my mothers, and in the week I'd been in the hospital I had officially graduated from high school.

"Be back in a second." I said to Braden as I followed the doctor in to the hallway

"Ms. Taylor it seems that you are NOT pregnant." He said and I can't even begin to describe the relief that washed over me

"THANK FREDDIE MERCURY!" I yelled

"Don't thank any deceased rock stars just yet." He said pulling out a chart "It seems as if one of your ovaries isn't working,"

"Oh, is this a Problem?" I asked running my fingers through my long black hair

"If you plan on producing children, then yes. It is a problem." He said "Ten years ago when my wife was told the same thing, we were trying to make a family, we received a call from the adoption agency in Japan and now." He pulled out his wallet "We have three adopted daughters." He smiled showing me a picture of three children

"How is this supposed to help me have children?" I asked

"Well sometimes they can start working again, but until then you won't be having your menstrual cycle, but what happened is right after we adopted the triplets, my wife became pregnant with twin boys." I had tears in my eyes and I wanted to leave "what I'm saying is, there is always a chance."

"Thank you."

****

I walked back into the room after I had composed myself and told Braden I was ready to leave.

"So..." Braden started

"I'm not pregnant."

"That's great!" He said and then noticing the hurt look on my face said "Unless you wanted to be pregnant... Did you?"

"No of course not, it's just. It's just."

"What?"

"The doctor said that there was a big chance I wouldn't be able to become pregnant when I did try to become pregnant."

"Oh. I'm sorry, once a doctor told me that I wouldn't be able to sing anymore and look at me now!" That made me laugh

"Thanks Braden."

"Anything for you Aud."

****

Later that night when Braden was asleep, I got out of my bed and slipped on a black dress and a pair of Black combat boots, I had to see him.

I walked outside into the crisp June night and grabbed Braden's bike, I knew he wouldn't care even if he did find out.

I pedaled and pedaled until I finally reached my destination.

The cemetery.

I got off the bike and rested it on a tree. I walked up the small hill and to the freshly turned dirt.

"Hello, James." I said staring at the gravestone

James Henry Smith
Born December 8, 1996
Died June 1, 2015
A golden heart stopped beating, a pair of eyes at rest, God broke our hearts to show us he only takes the best.

"Listen im not here to spit on your grave or anything and I'm thankful I'm not here to tell you that I'm having your children. What I'm here to say is that you hurt me. When you told me I was too fat or that I was too skinny, you hurt me. And when you physically hurt me deep down inside you killed me. But I also want you to know, that I forgive you. And wherever you are now, I want you to know that a part of me still loves you." I walked away from the cemetery and to the bike.

As I was pedaling home I couldn't help, but wonder, what would I do with my life? Of course I'll be leaving with Braden in a week to do Warped, but after that? Braden isn't always going to want me around, he may pity me now, but that won't last.

When I got back to the apartment I went to bed, and the tears only stopped when Braden put his arm around me and told me he loved me.