Hurt&Pain/Peace&Love

Your Turn

Beyoncé's POV
August 26, 2016
Huston, TX
4:00 AM

Ahh what happened? Why do I feel so weird and different? Huh what the fuck. Why can I see my own body? Why am I hooked up to machines? Why do I look so zombie like? Wait if I'm right there, then who am I in?

I looked down at my hands to see if I could know who I was. I saw light skin, and the floor felt a little far away like I was standing on stilts. I went to the bathroom and looked in the mirror, and I almost screamed when I realized that I was in Azah's body. I covered my mouth with my hand because I was freaking out, like how can this be? Wait if I'm in her body then that means *gasps* I have a dick, what happens if I have to go pee? Or is it when she has to go pee? Man this is confusing as hell. Okay we will not touch it unless we need to do so, but when we touch we will not look. Touching is for emergencies only like peeing, or changing I guess. What do I do now?

Go see detective Lalu. Why? Who is detective Lalu? I don't know, but go see her. Where do I go? Go to Azah's mom's office, she's waiting for you there. Okay.

I came out of the bathroom and walked towards the door, before I left the room I looked at my body one more time. I walked down the hallway still not knowing specifically where to go, so I kept walking until I saw a door that said Dr. Cromwell's Office on it. I opened the door and saw Mama C my mama and some detective looking lady, I assume that's detective Lalu. My mama got up and hugged me, and even though I was in Azah's body I could tell feel that she knew it was me.

"Gisselle sweetheart mommy's so sorry that she's been ignoring your pain this whole time, but I promise I'm going to do everything to protect you and your sister from now on. I love you BB." She said as she let me go and looked me straight into my eyes to let me know that she was serious.

"I love you too mama." I said back to her, and I sat on the couch next to her.

"Hi I'm detective Lalu, and Azah has told me many things about you Beyoncé. After you make your statement on your dad and what he has done, then we will fill you in on the plan Azah has set for us." Detective Lalu said after we shook hands.

"I think it's a wonderful plan, and I am very grateful that Beyoncé has Azah." My mom said and Mama C nodded in agreement.

"Yes it is Ms. Tina, and Beyoncé is very lucky to have Azah. If she didn't go back to that house Beyoncé might not have survived, but it's good thing that she did." Detective Lalu said.

Did she really save me? Did she bring me here? How did she know? I guess I'll have to find out another time.

"Beyoncé are you ready to confess what happened and what's been happening to you since the day of your parents divorce?" Detective Lalu asked me, and I shook my head yes.

"Actually is it okay if I tell my mom, and y'all listen to the recording for my statement? I just don't feel comfortable right now. Mostly because I'm in my girlfriends skin, but also because I've never confessed this to anyone especially not a cop." I said and they looked at me, and all shook their heads in agreement. Detective Lalu and Mama C left out the room, but before they did detective Lalu set up the recording.

"BB you ready?" My mom asked me as she held my hands in hers, I shook my head yes.

"I'm going to be honest mom there's really not much I can say, because for a very long time all he did to me was the same thing he did to me everyday. He would accuse me of doing something I didn't do to molest me that way, he would call it teaching me a lesson a punishment really. Or he would come home from work mad or even just 'energized' and take his problems out on me. Or he would put me on a time crunch, meaning if I wasn't in the house at the exact time he told me to be home I was doomed. After I cried myself to sleep the night you took Solange and left, he brought some friends over. I guess he told them not to be so loud because I was sleep, but one dared him to do something. I guess he didn't want to seem like a chicken, so he came into my room and they watched as I was being raped by my own father. After that day I knew nothing would be the same, and I was right because nothing is same. When I turned twelve that when he started to beat me and slash my back with either a whip or a stick, sometimes he would even do it with his bare hands. Until last week though he beat me to the point where I wasn't in school all week except Friday, and that's all because he bruised my entire body so bad that when I woke up it took me a whole day to gain strength to get out of my bed. Usually he would whip me till he saw blood, but I guess that time he didn't care. That day I came to your house I came to escape after I saw how badly he hurt my body while I was unconscious, but when I saw him there I was afraid he was going to kill me so I lied to cover myself by saving him again. He would use Solange as a threat, saying how he wish he got her instead because she listens better. How she was his favorite anyways so it makes since, how if I didn't come home he would get her instead because it was time for her to grow up anyways. I would get mad pissed when he talked about her like that, and one day when I cussed him out about it, and he almost killed me. He was trying to give me away to Shawn so he could take his place in the business, but I don't want Shawn I want Azah." I said and through most of what I said my mother would tighten her grip on my hands and she only shedded a few tears.