Hurt&Pain/Peace&Love

120 Hours (Part Two)

Ella's POV
Flashback
October 22, 2016
Huston, TX
Teyana's House
Sleepover
12:30 PM

Me, Solo, H.E.R., and Lani were over at Teyana's house for a sleepover, and we were just chillin'.

"Solo, Ella, how has Beyoncé been doing? And Azah? Is she going to be okay?" Lani asked us, but I didn't want to talk about it right now.

"Beyoncé's holding on, but we still don't know too much about Azah." Solo said and went back to playing the game.

"What about y'all? Ella how have you been holding up?" H.E.R. asked me, but mentally I didn't know how to answer her.

"Umm I'm okay I guess." I said hoping there were no more questions after this.

"Ayo Ana stop coming for me girl?" Solo said and I looked up to see them still playing Mario Cart.

I decided to go over this song I've been writing, but ofc it would never be out there into the world I've never had stage fright, or mess up when I talk or sing in front of people. It's just I told myself and promised myself that even if we make a million songs nun of them would see the light of day, because it reminds me too much of him, and how much him Azah and me loved singing together. Now it's going to remind me of all the times I'd secretly sing with Azah sometimes if she doesn't make it. A second mother and father figure she has and will always be to Moon and I, and I'm scared of what the future holds. If she dies mom will put herself back into that same toxic state, and never come home and stay at work. Leaving me to take care of Moon now. I guess at least we know he won't call me Mama like Azah, but now I'll be his third mother figure, because I could never take on those two very important roles of mother and father like Azah. I don't want to loose her too, but I'm afraid she'll pass before I even see her.

I just want to hold her like how she held me that night before dad died. I just want to tell her I love you, and I've always appreciated everything you've done for Moon and I, and just hug her until I can't hug her no more.

"Ella baby is you okay?" Solo asked me as I looked up to see all of them around me crouching on they knees, and I shook my head yes. "Baby what's wrong? You're crying." Solo said and I didn't even notice it, and I broke down even more.

"I'm scared." I said barely above a whisper,  and that was enough for Solo to know what I meant.

"Aww Mai come here." Solo said bringing me into a hug, and they all hugged me as I cried into Solo's chest.

Author's POV
Flashback
October 22, 2016
Huston, TX
Cardi's House
3:45 PM

Solána, Lauren, Jhené were at Cardi's house talking about some serious business, meaning they were having their weekly girl talks that happened on Saturdays. Solána doesn't know that Azah is in the hospital, but Lauren planned on talking to them about it today, even though Cardi already knows because she was a witness too.

"Yeah and can you believe this nigga had the audacity to call me a crazy bitch? Like Tyga be on some mess, but that's okay, because I put his ass in check real quick. Anyways Lauren, Cardi, how did the party at the Teens Club go? I heard it was lit, and as much as I wanted to come, unfortunately I had things to take care of." Jhené said, and Cardi looked at Lauren putting her head down.

Lauren didn't know what to say, or how to explain it. She's been distant from everybody lately including Drake, and she's been lost in her head. She just remembers how lifeless she looked, how cold she knew her skin was just by looking, and how the blood puddle around her was so big and wide. She's never seen anyone get shot so up close like that, and she's scared because she knows Azah's on life support. She hasn't been the same since, and she doesn't know if she ever will.