i cant choose

with out you

Rachel's pov

its been a week sense our keep holding on performance and puck said thank you like a thousand times and that he owes me but i keep denying everything he offers. every time I'm with puck and Finn i feel like there's this tension between all of us but i put it aside.

a couple days later

pucks pov

for a couple of days now Rachel has been very distant with everyone shes even leaving during glee. we haven't been talking as much but when we do its like shes not even there like she doesn't care anymore.I've asked her what the problem is but she says its nothing then i went to one of her other close friends Kurt and asked him "whats up with Rachel has she been distant with you?" i say as i walk up to him "actually yes she has now that i think about it...and i don't know whats up with Rachel" he says confused so i need to talk to all of her friends so the closest one i see is Finn "hey man whats up?" i ask him innocently "nothing much just about to meet up with Quinn what about you?" he replied "nothing much...do you know whats up with Rachel?" i asked raising my eye brows "actually no dude we haven't been talking very much lately" he said i tried to change the subject " so how are you and Quinn?" "were really good we went to the movies yesterday and she would not stop kissing me!" he said with excitement "yup shes a keeper" i said in a annoyed yet sarcastic way " well i have to go cant keep Quinn waiting...shes not a waiter" he said picking up his bag 

well me and Rachel go to the same church shed never miss a day of it..for anything or anyone so id figured to go when the next session is and to meet her there and when i did i saw her with that Brody dude. after church i followed them and all he did was drop her off at her House and then i kept following until he stopped at his house so i got out and talked to him, "hey whats up I'm puck!" i said as i waved "so your puck..i know who you are Rachel talks about the glee club a lot whats up?" he said leaning against the fence waiting for me to approach him "well i was wondering whats up with Rachel why is she acting like she just lost her heart or something?" i asked praying that he would give me an answer "well here's the thing i saw her in her car crying after she got off the phone i went up to he to ask what was wrong and she said she just found out that her dad fainted and is in a coma and also has cancer so I've been driving her everywhere including to and from school" he said ''but why wouldnt she tell me? were like best friends" i said confused "i dont know but it was nice talking to you" he said walking in his house.

Rachel's pov

i cant go to see my dad again it hurts to much I've been barely going to school brody has been driving me everywhere mostly because i don't feel comfortable driving anymore. I've been really distant lately with everyone including puck well except brody of course he found out when we o out of church he saw me crying and ect. i don't want anyone to know which ended when puck came up to me when i was at my locker "why haven't you told me about any of this!?" he looked concerned "well i don't know i didn't want a lot of people knowing" i said holding m tears back "you could have at least told me" he said while hugging me "i know" i said hugging him back and started to cry and he was just standing there...I'm really grateful for puck hes a really good person."you know you can tell me anything and you know that " he said stroking my head "I'm sorry i didn't tell you" i said looking at him and wiping my face "its OK but I'm the one who should be sorry...do you get to see him at all? he said pulling away i didn't want him to but he did "yeah but i cant its too much for me to handle" i said "well you don't have to handle it alone...maybe i could go with you to see him next time?" he said shrugging his shoulders "yeah that's sounds good...thanks" i said looking in to his eyes we were about to kiss my hands were on his arms and his hands on my hips we were face to face i was focusing on his lips when the bell rang "i should get to class" i said as i looked around and letting go of his arms.

pucks pov

i cant believe we almost just kissed it means she has some feelings for me i know i am so in to her but i wasn't sure if she even liked me that way i mean she could just be really upset but either way I'm gonna be there for her she was there when i had my problems there's no way i wouldn't be there for her she just so precious i would never hurt her like frankentein did i mean any other girl maybe but not my little Jewish American princess hell no! anyways me and Rachel were driving to the hospital and it was silent not awkward it could never be awkward. i couldn't help but keep looking at her she just so amazing shes beautiful, she hot obviously but I'm not just in to that i usually would be not her she different. we get to the hospital and i can see the fear in her eyes "its gonna be ok..hes gonna be just fine'' i said while putting my arm around her "i hope so" she said really depressed.