To the girl I hate.

Why can't i hit you?

Warnings: fat shaming and ED

What We Were Before

I wish I could hit you.
To make you like you were before.
When you were everything people would adore.
The cute girl next door.
I wish I could make you more.
Like what you were before.

Now things have changed.
In the most terrible ways.
Ideal is something you aren't.
Before yes but now that's far.

So far from the truth, that I wonder how people like you.

Why can't I hit you?
It crushing me to know.
It fills me with fury to know that the you is me.

The girl I hate is me sadly.

I can't hit you because the mirror would break.
The reflection of the water would shake.
The friendships we made break.
It all because of me and my ugly face.

Nothing will make me what i was before.
I will never be what people adore.
Or the cute girl that lives next door.
I will never be more.
No one will make me what I was before.

-sunflower