the soldier

chapter 7

I was  sitting on the couch waiting to hear news from Jay's dad. It's my fault that he could've died on the spot and I will always blame it on me now because i let him go with the guards.  I heard the door rang and i jumped up out of the chair and ran to the door and saw his dad and i was scared of what the news was. I opened the door and let him in and i shoed him to the sitting room where my family was.  "So he is fine but he lost a lot of blood  and he is going stay in the medical ring for a  couple of days and he should be at the reaping." 

That was kind of good news and he is my best friend and he like a brother to me and i hugged jays dads because i felt bad that i did this to his son. I kinda had tears coming down mt face because i was sad and happy. "you guys are more then welcome to stay here until things are calmed down of you and everyone else if you want." He shook his head and hugged me then the rest of my family. I walked out of the door and started heading to the medical wing because its so close to where i live and i looked for jay. 

I found jay. He was in the corner where the most critical people were and the nurses didn't even say anything to me and i guess they knew i was coming . I sat in the chair right next him and stayed with him. I grabbed his hand and rubbed his plan and i know he wont wake up tonight but I'm going to stay as long as i needed. I know he cant feel his stomach right now. I  turned the light off and just stayed with him.

One of the nurses woke me up and and told me that she needs help checking the wound. He was slowing waking up from the pain medication . He looked at me and grabbed my hand and i squeezed his hand. "Im here jay." i whispered into his ear and kept my hand while she lifted up his shirt that the medical wing gave him and he wimpered and it looks very bad. There was still little more blood coming out but not as bad 

I saw her wiping the little bit of blood off and putting numbing medication and putting more Iv flooded in him and he needs to get better.  "Nurse can i talk to you." She nodded her head and headed out of the room while i followed her out. We went by the nurses station. "Whats going on Jen?" I looked her with sad eyes and i didn't know how to say this her and she came closer and took me to the break room.  "I blame myself for him getting shot." She looked at me and got tissues for me to wipe my tears off. She put her arm around me and she didn't know what else to do.

i got up and i hsd to leave to check the traps that me and jay and get the food his and my family. I walked to jay and he was sleeping so i turned the light and walked out and start running to the fence where i go in and out.  I had my bag and my jacket that my dad gave me beifre i left to the capital. I got mt knifeout an got my arrows and my bow. I got more then a dozen fish or maybe more and i got the animals off of the trapps and killed more animals because i had get food for two families.  I went deep down  into the woods to get more good meat.  I just wan to make sure i have enough food for everyone.

When i went deep down i saw people standing where i need to but i hid behind a big bush so they don't see me and i didn't know  who they are at all. I don't think they are in district 12.  I ran back to the fence where i came from and went back home and got the food to my mo and she was surprised that i have a lot of food for two families. "Jen how is he?" I looked at her with sad eyes and i didn't know what to say to her.

She knew by my look that he isn't doing well at all and i made sure his family wasn't in his room at all and sat on the counter in the kitchen and she looked at me and closed the kitchen door. "The nurse asked me to help her to clean the wound and the wound looked very horrible and im sure he will stay in the medical wing for a month." She was shocked that i told her that and i knew she wasn't expecting that out of my mouth.  She was sad and i didn't know what to but break down because how much stress is on me

My mom hugged me and we heard everyone coming in from outside and the other okm and cleaned up my tears uo and helped my mom cleaning  the meat i was cleaning  the fish. My dad came in and opened the door and didn't say anything a grabbed some waters for everyone. When it was around 5 we stopped cleaning everything and i went back to the medical wing to relive his parents so they can come here and get some sleep.

I saw them sleeping in the chairs and i went over and woke them up and sent them to my home so they can eat something and get some sleep. I know the rraping is coming up and i wonder if he going be excused to go to the reaping. One of the nurses came and checked his vitals and smiled at me and walked out.  "Jen?" He looked at me with sleepy eyes and i turned on the light but on the lowest mode that it can go and i looked at him.

"Yes jay?" He grabbed my hand and rubbed it so i know he is ok. I laid my head on his shoulder and he was happy when i did that. "Will i be ok?" I lifted up my head and looked at him and a sad look and a unsure look. I didn't know what to say at all. I wanted to say lie and say yea your ok but i don't what to say at all. "Jay i don't know if you are going to be ok at all."