Dark Life

Cap.1 "meathing her"

I never had a normal life, probably because of my childood ,my dad was vert aggressive and he beat me up every day.... He still does .... Anyway ,i was saying, i NEVER had a normal life cause i'm a Little shy and i don't really talk to people,i just pretend to be happy,but i'm really upset,Always....i never told anyone my sexuality,but i think i'm bi ...but every time i try to tell this to someone i care ,they Just said:" don't worry,its just a moment, you're confused,don't make people change you're mind"....but this Is my mind....

Oh...and i forgot to mention that i cut miself ....yeah i'm not proud of this but what have you done of youre dad beat you up every single day Just because he's drunk and you were born? Yeah ,this Is why i done this,i just hope to end all of this ...

But the only positive thing is that i love drawing and acting ,even if nobody believe me when i said that i'd love to be an actress,but i will never be one....but enought of this sadeness.

Just one thing ,today everything would have changed ,but i didn't know It yet ..

Today my dad was away so he didn't punch me ,and the day started well. I slept aaaaalllll the night and i was going to take a walk to the park near my house. I never eat in the morning so i just drink a coup of juice and i dress myself, i took a simple black t shirt and ripped jeans ,picked the keys and went outside.

Meannwhile i was walking i saw an angry man walking towards my direction,that locked like my father,i got scared and i started panicking...(yeah i soffer of panick attack and anxiety ) so i just started to run on the other side of the street and hide myself behind a low wall; i picked up a little my head to see where he was just to see him going on the supermarket (probably to get some bear).
I started relaxing,Just a little ,but my nerves where still rigid.. i start locking around and i saw a group of people ,or more specificly actors that were trying to take a scene . In that moment everything went off,there was just me and the actors in the distance...the atmosphere was something incredible,i fell like that was my destiny,but that amazing moment was cut of by someone toutching my shoulder,than i flinched and toock a step away from the person near me,because i was scared it was my dad...but.... It wasn't... It was a beautyfull girl,long dark hair,green eyes,Amazing eyes,that you could have Lost inside of them, and a gorgeus smile...but suddently every tipe of fear in my body just kick in and i start panicking ,wondering who she was,what she wanted and why she was near me!? .

All of that made me fell on the floor,and my hand hit a rock and It was a huge cut in the palm of my right hand...great,now i have to explain to my father why i have a huge cut on my hand!!??.... Ahhhhh..... I'm fucked up...and It hurt so bad...