Dark Life

Chap. 9 "i wanted to do it for a while"

*Y/n pov*

Lizzie Just kissed me!!!! Yeah on my forhead,but she still kissed me !!!

Wow her lips are soo soft like they seem...i think she's the one....

But this tought are interropted by my ache,i have blood ripping down my hole body....

I start thinking about everything my father put me thought,every punch,slap, every kick....every single time he shout at me telling me that i'm a bitch....

My eyes filled with tears and i start to go in  iperventilation

"Hey Hey, what's wrong? Y/n? What happend?" Lizzie asked me ,but i just couldn't answerering her...i couldn't breath

*Lizzie pov*

Oh god,i think she's having a panick attack

"Ok y/n focus on me ok? Follow my breath....in ......out....in....out...."

She just shake her head 'no'. It's not working ....what can i do ? She doesn't even talk to me

Think Lizzie,think.... And than i found the answer ..but i don't know if she'l be comfortable with what i'm about to do...and i wanted to do It in another circustances....

I toock her face in my hand ,we loock in the eyes,her's filled with tears,and mine with love... for her... I then press my lips against hers,and we stay there with our lips connected for a few second,then i pull away to let her breath....

*Y/n pov*

W-what have j-just happend ??? S-she kissed me ????but wait!! Now i can breath ....and i feel better than before

We loock at eachother for a few more second after She spoked again

"O-....i-im so sorry,but i saw that you were having a panick attack,and nothing came out except for this so-"

I cut her off taking her face in my hand and pressing out lips togheter again....her lips,so soft,they taste like strawberries,and i don't want to left them ,Shee just pressed our body even more close,wrapping her arms around my waist,and now the kiss was more passionate ,we weren't going far couse i still don't feel well but i love this moment.

After a while we pull out very slowly ,she bit my lips while stapping back ,(how hot) this thing make me crazy. We loock at eachother and she said:
" you know i wanted to do It for a while now,but i hate to have done it now that you're not feeling good..."

"Don't worry,i wantet It too ...even if i'm loosing soo much blood... Ah ah " i slily laugh couse my ribs hurt like hell

"Oh god,you're right ,you're still bleading!! Come here,let's go downstairs, Scarlett Is probably coming soon."

She than pick me up and i wrapped my arm around her neck and placed a sweet kiss on It just to tease her

We arrived in the livingroom and she placed me on the couch ,the same couch that i used when i first come here...when i was still with him ....

"Oke,so are you hungry ? You want something to eat or drink ? " Lizzie asked me while sitting near me

"Oh no,just a coup of water ,thanks <3" i said while smiling to her and she smiles back

"Ok, i'm coming baby ,wait here "

*Lizzie pov*

After a while Scar has comed back ,so i decide to take y/n in the bathroom ,to have a little bit of privacy.

"Ok y/n now you have to take your shirt off"

She just lowered her head,and stand there ,sit on the sink

"Is... everything alright ? Do you need to tell me something? Or you're just not comfortable undressing in front of me ? I get It if you're not ,it's ok ,take your time"

*Y/n pov*

How and i supposed to explain to my....my.... What are we? Anyway ,how am i explaining to Lizzie that i cut myself??

"Ammm .....so..... there's a thing....that ....i use to do ... i'm not proud of It....but... it's the only thing that helped me thinking that i have another way out..."i played with my hand while i said It and I don't even loocked at Lizzie couse i'm ashamed of what i done...

"...so,you're...telling me that you.....mmm...you-"

"Yeah..i cut myself....."

And than the room went silent...good now she think i'm crazy or that i do this just for attention....oh god i fucked up everything!!...

"I-i undestand that now you don't want to stay with me anymore...so ,you can be onest with me-"

"What are you saying ??? Are you crazyyy??? Why would i think that??? I'm not going to leave you ,i already told you! I'm staying here with you ,and i'm going to help you ,WITH EVERYTHING ,ok baby? "

Oh god ,i love this girl

"... Yeah...thank you Lizzie"

"Ok cmon let me see..."

I took off my short and she saw my all bruised body and my wrist wrapped with bendage. Aaaggg i'm ashamed of my body ,so i tried to cover up some of my bruise but she gently stopped me.

"You don't have to be ashamed of yourself or your body...we just need to make you loock like a mummy" i think she said that jocking, to change a little the subject of the conversation,making me more comfortable.

"Yeah, so i can be barried and forgotten by everyone..."

"NO! SO YOU CAN HEAL AND BE OK,WITH ME !! THAT'S WHAT I MEANT..."

I stayed silent for a couple of second than i start slily loughing

"You know... I never tought to find someone like you" i said while loocking her straigh in the eyes

"Like what ? "

"Lovely, onest,sweet, beautifull, amazing. Like that !"

She didn't said anything,she just kissed me.

After a while she pull away and said:ok, i think you know now how much i love to kiss you ,but i think that you need to shower baby,and than i can wrap you with the bandages"

"Oke,so i ...just....go in .."

"Oh yeah ,sorry ,i wait you in the livingroom with Scar,and call me if you need anything ok?"

"Ok,thank you ,se ya!"

And with that i took a shawer ...oh god i don't shawer from ages
The hot water roll dove my aching body,and i flinch a little couse my wound are still open ,so i made It quikly ,i clean myself,i dry my hair and put on new underwear,wrapping myself with the towel couse i'm still shy about my body and i called Lizzie and she helped me with the bandages. Than i put on some of lizzie's clothes....awww i love to wear her things ,they smell like her ,and i love It .

<<Ok i know this Is a long one,but what can i say,i just lost track of time ,eh eh... And hey y/n and Lizzie kissed sooo,it's better like this >>