Dark Life

Chap.5 "don't cry baby"

⚠️Tw,self harm,panick attack ⚠️

*Y/n pov*

After a wile,i think ,After i passed out, It was 4:15 ,dammit, i didn't even text to Lizzie .... i don't know why she was the First thing on my mind ..

I tried to go up,but every fibre of my body hurt ,aaaaaa when the hell Is going to finish this ??!!!! I can't Do It enymore....

I started crying so much that i can barely see and breath ...i think i'm having another panick attack,my chest hurt so bad,i can barely move....
There wasn't anything that could have helped me... NOTHING...except for one thing ....Lizzie

Immediatly i start locking for my phone and i saw It in the livingroom...how am i supposed to go there ??

I start standing up,trying to ignore the exrusciant pain i have in all my body...
After a while i made It to the livingroom and i picked up my phone ,Just to see It with a huge crack on It

"Please please please , don't be broken , don't be broken...pleaseee.."
I open It and ...It worked yayyyy!!!

"Thank god"

I saw that Lizzie sent me a message hours ago ..i hope she isn't mad at me ...

But before i could answer her message i heard the door open ,so i just speed up on my room and lock it,hoping that my father won't come here...

He didn't ,meaby he's too drunk,so i start cleaning myself from all the blood that Is ripping out of all of my body,It hurt so much....

After i clean and change myself i start so silenty crying couse i can't do It anymore...i prefer ti die...."please someone help me"...i whisper....

Then everything went black ..i think i passed out couse i wakes up at 4:20 in the morning.

⚠️I took my phone but i didn't open It . I took off the cover and took 'her' the only thing that maeby can help me escape from this awfull nightmer....
I cut my wrist,more and more ,and when i tought i can't take It anymore i replace the blade on my phone case , i wrapped my wrists with bandages and immediately pulled down the sleeve of my shirt,⚠️ because I heard my father's footsteps approaching my door.

"Y/n!!!!! Come here ! Now!!" He said with an angry voice

"I-im c-comimg! "

I open the door ,make my way downstairs and meet him with a beer in his hand..

"Hey! Go out and take me some more beers and when you come home make lunch,hurry up i don't have all day!!!" He said ,not even locking at me

"O-ok ,i-im going ....s-see y-you l-later..." And with that i made my way to the supermarket.

*Lizzie pov*

Me and Scarlett are home,she slept her ,and now she's asking me to go to the supermarket because she want to make me lunch,i think because she saw that i'm a bit quiet ,cause i'm thinking of y/n ,She doesn't text me back...what if ... No no no, she's ok, i'm just a bit lost in thought...

Me and Scar made our way to the supermarket and i tought i saw y/n ,if she was her i saw a black bruise on her neck ,and face....oh god ...could It be her father ?...

I was lost in my thought that i didn't realize that we where in the supermarket

*Y/n pov*

I went to the supermarket,i wear a sweatpants and a long dark sleeve.. i know is almost Summer,but you know,i can't go out and let everyone know i cut myself and that my dad is abusing me !!!

While i was picking up the beers i think i saw Lizzie....aw Lizzie you don't know how much i wanted to run to you,hug you and cry in to your shoulder,but i can't ,cause if i'm late dad would be mad at me .

"Y/n?!" I hear someone calling me from behind

I turn carefully not to feel the pain in my ribs,and i saw her.....She was right in front of me ....with her beautifull face,that Amazing eyes ,but she wasn't smiling...She was ...sad? Mad? No no ..worried ! Oh god,i made her worried ...

"Y/n ? What are you doing here ? How are you? You didn't text me back yesterday...i was so worried !!"

My eyes start to fell with tears so i just lowered my head ".....i-im sorry.... I was busy....and my phone died.....s-sorry...i-i think i should g-get going now...my dad is waiting for me ...by-"

I was cut off by Lizzie hugging me ....w-what..... Why Is she hugging me? What am i doing now? Should i hug her back ?.. yes....even if my whole body hurt i hug her back...

"It's ok, it's ok ...now i'm here....don't worry ...shhhhh i'm here"
I start silently sobbing in her shoulder ,i can't do It anymore...i need someone to help me ,and that someone is Lizzie.

"P-please ....h-help m-me .....i-i c-can't d-do It a-anymore....."i whisper in her hear while sobbing

"Of course i'm here for you...don't worry , i'm gonna take care of you ....shhhhh don't cry baby.... i'm here."

We Just stood there ,in front of the beer freezer ,hugging eachother, she stroked my hair as she whispered sweet words to me.

And in that moment i  realized that I wanted to be with her .. with lizzie and that I would have told her everything .... only if it wasn't for my father .... that was there searching for me ...

<<Dammit,that fucking father !!! Sorry :) i hope you guys are enjoying this book ...y/n Is going to have some time in peace away from the father  and togheter with Lizzie don't worry.
Have a nice day,take care of yourself <3. >>