I Want You

Chapter 4

Lennon.

"That bastard!" I scream, thrashing on my bed in annoyance as I shut the vibrator off

A knock comes from my bedroom door and Tayen calls out, "You okay?"

"No!" I shout immediately in annoyance, not at Tayen but at Xan. I take a deep breath. "Yeah, I'll be out in a minute." I add in a calmer voice.

I get up and get dressed, frustration bubbling deep in my veins. It's been a week since Xan's birthday and I've tried every night since to get myself off. Nothing, not even a flutter. I even went out with Draven Kingswood to see if it was just me. He took me ice skating and then we had dinner at a nice restaurant afterward. When he drove me back to my apartment building I kissed him. One thing lead to another and even his fingers didn't make me orgasm which pissed me off because I had heard so many stories about Dravens talented fingers from girls on the squad.

I ended up faking an orgasm but I'm not the best actress in the world so I think Draven knew I didn't come, he didn't call me out or question it though, thankfully. If he would've I might have broken down and cried. I felt bad for leaving him with a hard on as I quickly told him by and exited his truck but not bad enough to take care of it.

"Let me guess... Xan?" Tayen asks as I enter the living room.

"I'm going to kill him, actually kill him." I huff as I fall back onto the couch beside her.

"Or you could do what you planned on doing last week when you chickened out."

I groan. "You just don't understand. He taunted me for coming onto him last week, if I ask him to be my fuck buddy I'll never live it down." I cover my face up in mortification just thinking about it. "It's so embarrassing."

She smirks. "Which is worse: having no orgasms or being embarrassed for a whole five minutes?"

I gape at her "Have you even met Xan? It won't be for five minutes it will be every time I see him."

He'll never let me forget it.

"Do you think maybe he does it because you react? If you don't react he will probably stop." She suggests.

I huff. "That's a great suggestion except it's really hard not to react."

She shrugs.

I scoop my cheer bag off the floor and leave the apartment. We have a late practice tonight since we have an early flight in the morning for an away basketball game tomorrow. I throw myself into practice, pushing my body as hard as I can, letting the feeling of my aching muscles take my mind away from my daily life. By the time practice is over I'm drenched in sweat.

Divya bumps me with her hip. "You hit every mark, we're gonna look so good on the court tomorrow."

I take a quick shower and dress in a pair of leggings, a sports bra and a loose tank top because I'm still hot. I slip my sneakers on my feet and a hoodie over my head before zipping my duffle bag up and leaving the gym. I'm tired but it doesn't stop my mind from thinking about Xan and what his fingers have done to me.

On the walk home I have to pass Aces house and my feet stop right in front of the the walkway leading to their tiny front porch. I could do it, knock on the door and tell him we should be fuck buddies. He might not even be there though, I don't really know his schedule so he could be on a date or working or—

"Hey, Lesley, looking for Ace?" Jax asks as he exits the house.

His fingers are laced with Akira's and she scowls at him. "Her name is Lennon, Jax." She snaps.