I Want You

Chapter 13

Lennon.

Xan looks so handsome in his coat and beanie, my heart aches when our eyes meet. I've missed him so much. I want to jump up and wrap my arms around him, press my lips against his and melt into him but judging by the look on his face I don't think he would consent to that. He doesn't look happy to see me at all.

"Damn it, you should've went home, Lennon." Xan snaps, as he approaches.

It's the first time he's ever called me Lennon instead of Lennon Rose and my stomach churns. He looks pissed, his dark brows dipped in anger, his perfect lips pressed in a firm line.

"I needed to talk to you." I say and force my stiff body off the bench.

He arches an eyebrow at me. "I'm not gonna get you off, I'm not gonna let you suck my dick and I'm sure as hell not gonna fuck you, so go home!" He shouts and I flinch.

His words hurt, my skin aches as if they were physical blows.

"What is wrong with you?" I hiss quietly so we don't wake the rest of the neighborhood up. "I didn't come here for that, I just want to talk."

He lets out a humorless laugh. "Really? Well that's a surprise since that's the only reason you ever come around anyway." He cocks his head to the side. "What is it, Jax can't get you off either?"

My brow furrows. "What?"

"Well Draven Kingswood couldn't do the job so now that Jax actually remembers your damn name you figured he might be able to get it done, right?" He huffs. "God, I bet you were giddy as fuck when he asked you out weren't you?"

My face heats up in embarrassment. "Stop, Xan, you're being a dick."

"Damn right I am." He reaches for his car door and I step in between him and the car.

"Can we please talk, please." I beg him and I hate it especially doing it with the way he's treating me.

He looks down his nose at me and my stomach churns. "You've gotten pretty good at the begging thing but it doesn't do it for me anymore."

I flinch again and tears build in my eyes as my temper spikes. "What? Moved on quick, huh? Finally got to fuck me and couldn't even wait twenty-four hours to go on a date with someone else."

"What the hell are you talking about?" He scoffs.

"I woke up alone in your bed, confused only for Jax to tell me you were on a lunch date." A tear slips down my cheek.

"I was on a lunch date with my Aunt and my mom. I left you a note on my pillow before I left."

I didn't exactly look around before leaving his room to look for him and when I came back I was hurt and getting dressed as quickly as possible. A lunch date with his Mom and Aunt, no, that can't be true.

"What?"

He sighs. "My Dads Birthday was four days ago. We always have either lunch or dinner together and reminisce about my him." His eyes flick down to his feet.

"I'm so sorry, Xan." I say and give his hand a squeeze.

He knocks my hand away and scowls at me. "Don't fucking touch me after you've been with him."

"What are you talking about, I haven't been with anyone but you since New Years Eve, minus Draven of course." I mutter the end.

"Jax told me about your date tonight right before I was leaving for work. Said you assured him our fuck buddy situation was over. I was pissed but in denial about it because surely you wouldn't date my best friend without even attempting to have a conversation with me but then I saw you at the diner with Jax, laughing and smiling and talking. I didn't mean shit to you."