'A Time To Love & A Time To Die' Sequel To 'The Desire' Series (In Editing)

I am A Conqueror And I Won't Accept Defeat.....(Edited)

Star P.O.V

After I told Nik about Angelic and how Dahlia very real he really didn't say much which was worry me with Nik not speaking or sharing his thoughts at times was very dangerous thing. We both went back to the compound and I brought him to the room where I left Angelic body. He stood there looking down at her not uttering a word, I've never seen Nik grieve so I didn't know what to really expect from him I didn't know if he was going to lash out or he might burst into tears. This woman gave up everything so I stood here today she did it all because of her love for Nik. For Angelic to give up her life for a woman who hold the heart of the one she loves is someone truly special. In the short time of knowing Angelic I learnt a lot and that is you risk it all for you love ones. On this journey coming back being myself again I didn't just lose a possible good friend to Dahlia, but also my father. Nik maybe grieving for her but I was grieving for the both of them but I knew I had to stay focus, because if for one moment I thought about what Dahlia had taken from me already I will break.

That the thing about Grief can destroy you or focus you. You can decide a relationship was all for nothing if it had to end in death, and you alone. OR you can realize that every moment of it had more meaning than you dared to recognize at the time. So much meaning it scared you, so you just lived, just took for granted the love and laughter of each day, and didn't allow yourself to consider the sacredness of it. But when it's over and you're alone, you begin to see that it wasn't just a movie and a dinner together, not just watching sunsets together. It was everything it was the why of life, every event, and precious moment of it.

The answer to the mystery of existence is the love you shared sometimes so imperfectly, and when the loss wakes you to the deeper beauty of it. To the sanctity of it, you can't get off your knees for a long time, you're driven to your knees not by the weight of the loss but by gratitude for what preceded the loss. And the ache is always there, but one day not the emptiness, because to nurture the emptiness to take solace in it, is to disrespect the gift of life.

I stand here and I see Nik reacting in the same way as anyone would if they lost some dear to them but beyond these walls people in the streets. The people who know of him around this world or the next see him to be a vicious monster who could never feel pain or love. Only people who are capable of loving strongly can also suffer great sorrow. But this same necessity of loving serves to counteract their grief and heals them. They say time heals all wounds, but that presumes the source of the grief is finite. Grief is not as heavy as guilt, but it takes more away from you.

Nik had Angelic body removed and put into one of the casket he had in the basement. I wanted to speak to him about what had happened but as soon as I opened my mouth Aiden walked in asking to speak to him of course Nik went off to speak to him as it was an urgent matter apparently. The way I felt right now was like he kind of hated me for what happened, maybe I'm wrong and it's just the way he dealing with thing, but it's like he couldn't look at me. I could understand I hadn't made things easy recently with my behaviour and on top of all that the Mikaelson family drama. So I waited until this meeting was over. Nik and I need to discuss what are we going to do about all the issue stopping Chance and Hope coming home.

I sat in the courtyard at the table waiting patiently for him when the doors to the study open. Nik walks out looking like a man on a mission and I didn't like that look because it mean only one thing. Nik is out to kill and I know right now with his state of mind I needed to try and calm him down. Or at least try and find out what the hell Aiden had told him and help him.

"Nik where are you going? What did Aiden want?" Nik continued to walk away like he wasn't listening to me. I knew he was overwhelmed by everything I had told him but whatever he and Aiden spoke about has got him like this. "Nik!" I intercepted him and he didn't look best please but I wasn't going to let him walk out of here and do something stupid.