'A Time To Love & A Time To Die' Sequel To 'The Desire' Series (In Editing)

I'm A Prisoner To My Decision.....(Edited)

Star P.O.V

She had finally shown her face, wanting to switch side and be a member of this family to defend the life of an innocent child. Was the face shown to us the real one? I didn't know what to believe anymore when it came down to Freya, to be lied to and betrayed in such a way it's difficult to bury all that had happened. Everyone suffers at least one bad betrayal in their lifetime. It's what unites us. The trick is not to let it destroy your trust in others when that happens. Don't let them take that from you. It's easy to speak those words not to allow the person whom you once thought would be there for you no matter what, that they had your back, but then to learn that the whole time they weren't who you thought they were.

That's what irritated me most in that entire situation was the fact that I wasn't feeling humiliated, or annoyed, or even fooled. Betrayal was what I felt, my heart broken not just by anyone, but the person I once believed, to be a true friend. The worst pain in the world goes beyond the physical. Even further beyond any other emotional pain one can feel. It is the betrayal of a friend. The thing about betrayal is never easy to handle and there is no right way to accept it. When trust, once lost, it can't be easily found, not in a year, perhaps not even in a lifetime. If you spend your time hoping someone will suffer the consequences for what they did to your heart, then you're allowing them to hurt you a second time in your mind.

When I looked back to 1490 I was a silly and naive girl, yes a girl, even though I was full grown woman, and see many terrors of the world, I was naive to manipulation. I believed whatever anyone told me, the problem for me back then was that I couldn't ever really see who Niklaus was, any more than I can see what a mirror by itself looks like, because he reflects whoever's around him. He hid well what he truly was from me very well until the whole Petrova doppelgänger came around and Nik wasn't being that cautious. Even though I found out what he and the rest of his family were, I ran to the one person who had been plotting to make sure that this romance didn't succeed. When you loved someone and had to let them go, there will always be that small part of yourself that whispers, 'What was it that you wanted and why didn't you fight for it?' I've been fighting to be who I am all my life. What's the point of being who I am, if I can't have the person who was worth all the fighting for?

I guess that's why after 500 years I didn't continue to live with regrets, that I chose to follow my heart, because what the heart wants is what the heart want, as much as you fight it, it will always win in the end. I am thankful each and every day that I chose to do that because Nik and I were sync, it's important to have a husband that lives and believes the same way you do. Otherwise, you're asking for problems. Some look at us and think how I could be with someone who such a monster, who only thinks of himself, that is what he portrayed to others around him. The thing is when you're in love, you're capable of learning everything, and knowing things you had never dared even to think, because love is the key to understanding of all the mysteries.

Even unlocking the mystery of Niklaus Mikaelson, here is nothing on earth more beautiful to me than his smile...no sound sweeter than his laughter...no pleasure greater than holding him in my arms. When I was taken from him all those months ago I knew I could never live without him, stubborn little hellion that he is, in this life and the next, Nik is my only hope of happiness. The greatest love stories are not those in which love is only spoken, but those in which it is acted upon. Through all the trials and tribulations that Nik and I had been through, we have proven to one another that no matter what tries to destroy us, and our family, side by side we can overcome all odds.

So this Freya situation wasn't going to get in between us, with her trying to send chills that Dahlia will appear soon to come and get Chance. I wanted to speak to him about it all when we got home but something else was playing on my mind and that was Damon. He had been kept him in the dark far too long about Rebekah, and he needed to learn the truth. So I went in search to find him and it wasn't easy as I went to all the places that I thought I would find him, and nothing. I tried calling him various times and all I got was his voice mail.