just his barista... (RanbooLiveX!FemOC) [DISCONTINUED]

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a week later ...

tw // body/facial dismorphic descriptions.

luke <3

i woke up in an empty bed. the sun was shining very brightly through the window. i squinted my eyes and turned my body to the other side. that's when i noticed how my room's floor was clean and when i looked to the middle of the room, my suitcases were gone. i heard voices downstairs and sadie barking playfully. i got up and went downstairs to see what all the commotion was about.

when i got downstairs, i saw elsie and my mom at the door taking off their jackets and shoes. they looked like they just got back from taking her on a walk.
"good afternoon stranger!" my mom said in a warm tone after putting the jackets on the peg. "how'd you sleep?"
i rubbed my eyes and ruffled my hair.
"good i guess, what time is it?" i asked.
"2 in the afternoon." elsie said "i woke up at 9 and tidied your room but i didn't want to wake you." she added.
"i noticed, thanks. it would've just stayed there if you never got to it to be honest." i replied. elsie laughed a little, wrapped her arms around my waist and looked up at me with a goofy smile.
"i know, that's why i did it." she replied. i rolled my eyes and pushed her off.
"you're annoying." i muttered with a smile.
"i know!" she replied with her smile still on her face. "anyways, i need to prepare a stream, d'you mind if i log into my account on your computer?" she asked.
"you don't have to ask, do what you need to do." i replied with a smile. she smiled brighter and kissed me quickly.
"you can join me later if you want to!" she exclaimed as she ran upstairs and towards my office. i smiled to myself until i realised that both of my parents were staring at me. i then stopped smiling and quickly rushed past them with an embarrassed blush on my face to grab some food.

"y'know luke." mom started. "you guys remind me of your dad and i" i groaned and mentally slapped myself to prepare for the conversation that was about to happen.
"yeah? we do?" i replied with a strained tone. my mom noticed and lightly slapped my arm.
"oh don't be like that ... we were in love. and so are you." she noted.
"well, i'm glad you noticed. because i do love her ... a lot." i said.
"and that's good that you do honey, nobody's gonna trump her if you ever bring another person home." she declared. i smiled sarcastically and took a bite out of the sandwich i had made subconsciously while listening to mom.
"thanks mom ... i'm gonna get changed and join elsie now." i said while still biting into the sandwich.
"no eating with your mouth open!" she said as i left the kitchen.
thanks mom ...

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once i had gotten changed, i looked into the mirror by the bedroom door and inspected myself. i guess elsie was right ... my hair does need cut.

and my nose was also a little big.

did i gain weight in my face?

maybe i should keep the beard, it disguises the double chin i'm starting to get.

why do i look like this?

as i looked more into the mirror, the more my face changed and morphed into what looked like a monster. i managed to look away and finally leave the room.
feeling worse about myself, i walked towards my office and pulled out my phone to text elsie before entering.

els <3

You
hey, you streaming w/ facecam?

els <3
yeh, want me to turn it off?

You
please.

i put my phone away and heard elsie say.
"alright chat, i'm gonna turn off facecam because ranboo's needing stuff and it would be a pain if he had to put on a mask and glasses for a small amount of time." she explained. i waited a few more seconds until i opened the door and shut it quietly. elsie looked back at me and instantly knew how i was feeling.
"one sec guys." she said before muting her mic and standing up from the chair and giving me a small hug. i felt tears pool in my eyes as i hugged her tighter. elsie let go of me after a few moments and pulled my hand to sit on the floor next to her. i let myself cry quietly as i listened to elsie's bubbly voice as she effortlessly entertained thousands of people. she occasionally spun her chair, kissed my head quietly and ruffled my hair before going back to playing.
eventually i shut my eyes and rested my head on her knee, attempting to fall asleep.

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i woke up to elsie giggling softly and chatting to someone. i lifted my head up which caused her to mute the mic and she looked at me, placing her hands on my cheeks.
"are you okay?" she asked with some concern in her eyes.
"yeah." i lied, not wanting to worry her more. "who are you talking to?"
she removed her hands from my face and faced her computer. "oh it's just aimee. we're talking to their stream while they're playing animal crossing." she replied with a soft smile.
"that's nice. do you like them?" i asked.
"yeah! they're a good friend." she answered.

i felt like i was about to burst into tears again and i didn't want elsie to worry. so, i started to space out.
elsie continued to speak, but the words were muffled i couldn't understand what she was saying. the noise eventually stopped and i was in my own little world.

"luke?" she asked, placing one hand on my cheek again. i blinked hard a couple of times and came back into focus, only to realise that elsie was trying to have a conversation with me for ages and i wasn't even listening.
tears pricked into my eyes and i looked at her with no words to say.
"love?" she said with more concern as she slid the chair away and sat on the floor in front of me.
"i'm sorry." i croaked before bursting into tears again. she pulled me into a hug and let me cry for a while, letting me get it all out. she lightly scratched my head and whispered sweet nothings in my ear, reminding me how much she loved me for who i am, reminding me that she was proud of who i was, reminding me that the person i saw wasn't the person she saw. i started to believe her.
i pulled my head back to look at her. she wiped the tears away from my cheeks with her thumbs.
"i love you." she whispered, smiling softly.
"i love you too." i whispered back.
she leaned in and softly kissed me, when she pulled away, she rested her forehead on mine, it relaxed me a little. i took a shaky breath and took one of her hands away from my cheek to hold and she caressed my hand with her thumb as i relaxed it on her lap.

"lets go on a walk tomorrow, to our favourite place." elsie offered after a few quite moments. "we'd get proper private time to ourselves and we could take sadie with us, she'd love it too."

i thought about it for a moment. our spot is normally quiet and not many people go there because its overgrown. i wouldn't see many people and it would just be us.

"yeah." i spoke up. "i'd love that."