When the whole world shut down 2019 - ???

Chapter three

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This chapter is fully from Hazel's point of view, really also my mental health was so bad on January 2020, I was so scared from corona virus, I was scared that my lungs and heart couldn't make it, But now two years later I see that everything is possible if you just have enough faith for future <3

 January 2020

There are some new facts from that Chinese Virus. The real name of the Virus is Corona or Covid_19 (Corona virus, December 2019). The Virus spreads by humans. Contagion is capable to move from  human x to human y, little did we know at month ago. They do think that animals are the source of Virus. 

Is told that could be impossible for Corona to move from human to human, but there is found some new evidences for that. The first ever corona deaths have been reported at here, its horrible to even think about future. And fucking luckily for me those with immune diseases or humans that own an high risk to get Corona are urged to STAY AT HOME and self quarantee by themselves. I know without saying that this Virus will be fatal for me, not just because of cancer but also for low immune and hypersensitivity for infections. 

In our school they don't take corona seriously, like we would be at the divergent book, our teachers are like some fucking erudites with their advises to continue living completely normal life!!! They do think that Virus that is almost a global pandemic now is just some placebo the ufos from Roswell, that will fade away if not speaking about it. Teachers are telling for us that this whole thing is just like one large simulation bubble, so humans would change their selfish behavior.

But I have known for the whole time sincerely November when there at China were identified the first ever covid_19 cases. Even before that laying at the hospital bed because of fatal lung infection I knew that something very bad would be happening soon. The corona came. And now this emotional also physical and mental roller coaster have been swirling almost two months. 

I am trying to live as normal as possible with my overprotective mother, and those endless new reports from China aren't helping the situation! I really am worried about my family's mental health. Let me say at it doesn't take so much more time for whole Lancaster family to be at the mental hospital!! I seriously don't even know what I should think from all of this global pandemic anymore, but I do know that I this goes worse, my head will break. 

I haven't seen Kaitlyn for ages now, because my mom doesn't let me go the outside of this house! I am insane and daddy is trying to help as mom as me but he needs to work because mom isn't okay at this time. But even Dad really can't help mom when she does have that 'psycho mood' on. 

The ambulance has visited 5 times at our house during this week, YES I mean it. My dear mother is always lying for the emergency control that I do have suicidal thoughts but she doesn't realise that most of those are from her behavior! The last time one of the paramedics said that if I need they will book one room from Indiana cancer hospital for me. That I would have some break from my stressful home.

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After all this wouldn't be so embarrassing to me anyway but when your next door neighbor (which happened to be the boyfriend of Kaitlyn and damn annoying kind one) has seen all of those ambulance emergency visits. He had told lies from me AT HIGH SCHOOL, which says that I am insane psycho. So no everyone is calling a Crazy - Grace!! So thanks so much Waters, you helped this situation so many ways!!

The fact that before my cancer diagnosis he was one of my closest friends is not helping this situation. But five years ago straight after hearing from my disease he just run away and disappeared from my life. Now he is not even talking with me - not at the school or home - looks like I am just air for him now.

His behavior is so dump, because I have heard that he itself used to have cancer don't mean that I am interested but still... Well its his own fault that he doesn't speak for me anymore, if he doesn't talk me nor do I need to. Like I said we were dating for a little time before my lovely mother ruined everything. So basically since that He has been dating with Kaitlyn. Actually I am more mad for Kaitlyn, because one of the most important rule from friendship is that ' Do not touch to EX of you best friend!' And she just brutally broke that one rule. 

I know that it is so stupid to call someone from their last name, but it does work with us. We made a deal at the last year that if we absolutely need to talk to each other then just the last name, anything more. My parents does thing that this 'just last name' thing is so confusing that would be easier to call by first name, but they don't understand. 

Of course Kaitlyn is just fucking happy that me and Augustus are not speaking with each others, she says that it is better than she doesn't need to share him with anyone. It is so fucking same for me, I don't care. But some days I really think that how Gus can date with Kaitlyn. Her temperament is so bright shining that is causes a migraine for me even if I go to the shopping with her for three hours. 

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I think that I am more evil than Veronica Roth after she 'killed' Tris Prior . In this version of book I just absolutely do hate Hazel's parents and also Kaitlyn so I do have some plans for those three mean person *-* also at here Finland clock is 11.14 PM so good night <3