The Science of Falling in Love

Insecurities

Body issues, Self confidence issues, Mentions of overthinking about food

Ganyu- She/her

I knew that when I introduced Ganyu I wanted to properly acknowledge her history with body issues and all the issues I know she canonically has had come with that.

I feel like it's a part of canon that is often overlooked or just joked about but as someone who struggled and even now struggles with body image knowing this game has someone like that is nice. It's probably why with Ganyu especially, it pisses me off with how sexualised she is by certain people in the fandom. 

I really have tried to write this as best I could, using some inspiration from things I do or think or say.

 I feel like we need to acknowledge these problems, even if it is just for a fictional character.

Because of the fact this chapter means a lot to me personally I would really appreciate if you don't sexualise Ganyu in the comments. I don't think most of you would but I wanted to ask anyway. If you do leave one for whatever reason I'll just find a way to remove it.

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Ganyu looked down at herself in the mirror and sighed once more.

Why did she have to look like this?

She discarded her towel somewhere months floor before tracing slowly the areas on her body she disliked.

A finger trailed down a thigh, following the line of purple stretch marks that littered them. Then it moved to her hip, examining the marks that lay there.

She didn't know when this became a habit, it felt almost as long as she could remember. Having a shower, getting out and just staring at her insecurities.

And boy was there a lot.

A hand moved to her face, tracing the eye bags and the acne that was there.

School stressed her out to no end. She attended a prestigious school that worked the students to the bone. The amount of homework every night was mad.

The stress caused her to get less sleep and ever since she'd started her acne got worse. The face washes, the face masks, the specific acne treatment, nothing cleared it up for long.

She examined her legs once more.

Would she look nicer if she shaved more?

She didn't do it often, too busy or too lazy to do so but sometimes she wondered.

Then again the slight hair that was there covered up the purple marks and the scars on her knees from when she was a kid.

She turned to the side and altered her posture about ten times.

Maybe she needed another diet. She seemed to have gained weight. Maybe she shouldn't have had that extra slice of cake the other day.

She sighed again and went to her wardrobe, finding the baggiest clothes she had. She put them on and did her hair up in her usual ponytail. 

She sighed once more and sat down on the bed, wiping the slight tears pooling down her face.

"Ganyu sweetie it's time for breakfast." Zhongli said and knocked on the door.

"Ok, I'll be out in a minute dad." She said, trying not to show her sadness in her voice.

"Alright honey." 

Ganyu wiped her eyes again and tugged her jumper down. She got up and left to go have breakfast.

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I have a question, is another poly ship one too many or would you guys be fine with another one? I'm asking because we already have two but I thought of another one and I just wanted to know you guy's opinions. It wouldn't be added for a while. I've got loads of chapter ideas so it would be about ten before I even started to consider it anyway. 

Yeah so uh give me your opinions,

until next time,

Raven.