Nightmares

Condē

The wind blew through his cloak chilling him to his bones but he didn't mind as long as he could watch her . Lost in thought he stood there leaning against the railing. Far enough away so she couldn't see him but close enough that he could see her . Down below him she sat staring of into the distance . Every once in a while she would furrow her eyebrows and bite down on her lip .

What is she thinking about he wondered watching in amazement . Even when she looked frustrated and angry , she still looked beautiful . Part of him wish Mary would look up and see him ,but the other part knew he had to keep his distance .

Sighing he backed up turning away from the window . With every step he took away from her a little piece of him broke . Maybe if things would have been different . If he would have met her before she married Francis . They could have been together . He would have made her happy .

Sighing he ran his finger through his hair . I shouldn't even think that way it's to late anyway I can't change the past ,he thought trying to convince him self he didn't have feelings for her .

Pushing hard , he slid the door open to his bed chambers . Walking inside he noticed a letter laying on his pillow . Slowly he picked it up ,turning it over in his hand wondering who it was from . Carefully he broke the seal , and started reading .

DEAR CONDĒ
IM SO SORRY ABOUT FRANCIS . I TALKED TO HIM HE DOESNT SEEM TO UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH YOU HAVE HELPED ME . I WISH THINGS WERE DIFFERENT AND THAT WE COULD BE FRIENDS . I REALLY DO BELIEVE WE WOULD HAVE BEEN REALLY CLOSE . I KNOW FRANCIS HAS FORBID US TO SEE EACH OTHER AND I CAN'T JUST IGNORE IT BUT ID LIKE TO SEE YOU ONE LAST TIME TO SAY GOODBYE . PLEASE MEET ME IN THE BASEMENT WHERE THEY KEEP THE WINE BARRELS AROUND MIDNIGHT .
MARY .

He read the letter over a few more to make sure he was reading it right . Walking to the fireplace He threw the letter in . Just as it went up in flames , there was a knock at the door .

"Come in" he called his hand resting on the brick fireplace .
In walked his guard a letter in hand . Another one ? He thought before the man could speak .
" There's a letter from your royal brother " he said handing it to condē
"Thank you "condē said giving the man his leave .

When the door shut behind him, condē opened the letter .

DEAR BROTHER
I HAVE SOME VERY GOOD NEWS TO SHARE WITH YOU . QUEEN ELISABETH IS LOOKING FOR A HUSBAND AND YOUR THE LUCKY FELLOW SHE HAS PICKED . SHE WOULD LIKE TO MEET YOU FIRST . I EXPECT YOU BE ON YOUR WAY TO ENGLAND AS SOON AS POSSIBLE . AND LITTLE BROTHER DONT SCREW THIS UP . SINCERELY ANTONIO

Sitting down ,he laid his head in his hands . What am gonna do he thought . He was flattered the queen request for him to be her husband but he didn't wanna leave France . Didn't wanna leave Mary . Maybe this was a sign that he had to leave before anything got serious . His heart broke as he realized what he had to do ..

Mary
Candle light flicker as she descended the stone stair way . The echo of her foot steps bounced of the walls . When she came around the last corner she saw him waiting for her . Mary noticed how the candle light shown in his eyes making them look on fire . It was quite stunning . Condē really is handsome she thought taking in his features. Shaking her head she banished the thought from her mind .

Setting down the candle , she raced to him wrapping her arms around him . He tensed up ,but quickly relaxed hugging her tighter to him.

"Hi" she said pulling back .
He smiled at her sweetly returning the gesture .
" Condē I'm sorry" she started before he stopped her .
" Mary please don't apologize, it is me that should be apologize to you " he pleaded
Puzzled she looked at him "what do you mean "
Slowly he ran his fingers through his hair .
" Where should I start " he sighed " Mary I'm sorry Francis was right to keep us apart . I didn't mean for it to happen but I fell In love with you "

Shocked ,she sucked in a breath waiting for him to continue .

" Mary " he touched her arm lightly "I'm leaving "

"What " she blurted Out
"I have to go Mary I can't stay here . The longer I'm around you the deeper I'm falling . Mary please understand "
Lifting his hand stroking her cheek
"I can't put you in the danger . Even if we wouldn't do anything . Rumours could get us , you killed and I couldn't live with myself if that happened "
Bending down he kissed her on the cheek before walking away .
Mary just stood there in shock .

When it finally sunk in what has happened she sunk to her knees . Hot wet tears streaming down her face . She didn't love him the same way he did her but he was a great friend to her . The only person she felt she could truly trust and he was leaving . How could this be happening just when she finally started to feel normal again .

AUTHORS NOTE
HI GUYS IM SORRY I DIDNT UPDATE FOR A WHILE BUT IM GONNA START TO KEEP UP WITH IT NOW :) please leave feed BACK AND IDEAS OF WHAT UD LIKE TO READ :) I WAS THINKING ABOUT KEEPING CONDE IN AND WRITING ABOUT HIS TRIP TO ENGLAND AND THE QUEEN .. AND SORRY IF THERE ARE MISTAKES I DO TRY TO REREAD BEFORE POSTING BUT IM NOT PERFECT :)