Nightmares

Bash

"Fuck " he screamed pounding his fists against the wooden barrel " you can't be empty "
Pounding echoed around the room as the barrel creaked under his fist . Some how the sound soothed him.

"Bash " a hand grabbed his shoulder making him jump and turn around .
" For fuck sakes Francis you scared me " he slurred
" Your drunk ain't your " francis asked sounding a little annoyed.
" Well no shit , what gave it away " he huffed
" Is this what you've been doing all night ? Getting wasted in stead of going home to your worried wife " Francis shouted judgement clear in his voice .

" Screw you. " Bash shot back walking past him slightly stumbling .

" I thought you had grown passed this , This immature behaviour "

" Oh I'm sorry your majesty have I disappointed his royal highness , should I bent down and kiss your boot like all the rest ,would that make you happy . Well that isn't going to happen so fuck off " venom dripping as he slurred his words slightly

"BASH STOP THIS NOW " Francis ordered .

The sudden coldness in his brothers words made him stop and look up at him . Bash may have been the older brother but in this moment the way Francis look at him made him feel 5 years old . Groaning he brought his hands to his face and sat down on the steps .

" Now can we have a civilized conversation " Francis asked his voice softening slightly . Looking up he nodded .

" That's better . Now tell me what's got to down here in the cellar drinking " Francis asked his hand resting on his brothers shoulder .

" It's nothing " bash lied not wanted to think about it.
" I can tell when you lie to me "
"I just I don't wanna talk about it ok. " Bash confessed why does everyone seem to always be in my dame business he thought slightly annoyed at the world as Francis sat down beside him .

" You just wouldn't understand " bash pleaded
" Try me "
"Kenna's pregnant " he confessed
"Oh"
"Is that all you're gonna say " he questioned looking at his younger brother.
" What is it you expect me to say "
" I don't know that I'm stupid. That I should be happy and not sitting down here getting drunk "

Francis let out a laugh " well I do think you're stupid and should be happy but I know you and I know you wouldn't be down here if something didn't bug you . So I'll just sit here until you feel better or decide to tell me. "
"It's just I'm scared what if I'm a terrible father ? What if I don't do right by this child ? What if I can't give it the life it deserves ? What if I disappoint it some how ? What if it grows up to hate me " bash confessed all his fears .

" At least you'll have the chance to try to be the best father you can be even if u screw up. "
Bash looked to to find pain etched over his brothers face . Shit I totally forgot about the child he lost he cursed at himself .
" I'm so sorry for your loss " he grabbed his brother and wrapped arms around him .
"It's ok . Just promise you won't come down here and get drunk ! Please do the right by this child "
" I promise " bash nodded letting go of his brother . With that Francis got up and left his brother alone with his thoughts .

Francis is right I have to shape up and do what's right. This is my child no matter what I can't chance that . I have to try my hardest even if I fail at least I tried . Bash swallowed lump that caught in his throat at the thought . No I won't try I will be I will be the best dame father . This child deserves nothing less . But right now I have to get back to my wife and make things right .

Kenna

Mm she mumbled rolling on to her side .
" Hi " a soft voice soothed her .
Opening her eyes she squinted at the person sitting on her bed .
" Bash" she gasped sitting up " where have you been "
" I'm sorry I know I screwed up but I'm here now "
Kenna could smell the strong odour of wine on his breath .
" Have you been drinking ? Is that what you were doing while I've been crying all night worrying about you " crossing her arms over her chest

" Kenna is just I ... I don't know I've been confused " he stirred running his hand through his thick black hair . The guilt on his face made her melt . Dammit no Kenna you can't let him off this easy he has to know he can't be doing this every time something upsets him .

" bash you can't just run off and get drunk every time we argue not when you are going to be a father . You have to grow up " her voice sounded more stern and angry then she really felt . From the look on his face she knew her words were sinking in .

" I know " is all he reply squeezing her hand .
"Bash I love you and I want you to talk to me , help me understand we need to move passed what happened please let me in. " She sighed placing a protected hand over her stomach . She wasn't showing yet but she would be soon .

" It's just , I know that you didn't want this life anyway not with me . You wanted to marry some rich person some1 who could really pamper you the way you deserve . When all these men flirt with you and I know they could give you what you've always wanted well I get really jealous and I don't know how to handle it " his fears clear in his eyes

" Bash " she soothed placing her hand on his cheek her thumb caressing his skin " I know I used to want that . I was a child then I'm sorry I made you feel that way but I don't want it anymore , yes it would be nice having all,those things but I don't need them all I need is your here by mine and this innocent child's side forever and always ."

Before she knew what was happening his lips were on hers . Passion shot through her . Mmm she moaned against his lips making him smile . But something deep inside her made her push him away . " Why did you leave when I told you I was pregnant I thought you would be happy "

Sighing he stood up and started pacing around . Worry gripped her harder with every minute that passed without him speaking . As much as she wanted to yell at him to talk to her she stayed silent till he was ready . After what seem like an eternity he sat down he beside her taking her hands in his .

" I'm sorry that me leaving the way I did made you feel like I didn't want this child because I do I really do it just that " he pulled his gaze away from her before finally returning it " it's just that I'm scared, I'm scared I won't be enough for you and this child. " A silent tear ran down his cheek .

" Oh bash " she cried taking him in her arms " you are enough more then enough you will be a amazing father this child will love you as much I do "
" I hope you're right " he mumbled into her shoulder . " I love you "
They sat like that for longest time before he finally pulled away . Holding her at arms length he looked her up and down .

" Have you eaten anything yet " he frowned
"No" her voice sounding squeaker then she expected .
Sighing he stood up "Ill go get you something "

As she watched him walk away she decide to get up . Throwing the covers off she stood up . Something was wrong . " Bash. " She screamed . He turned around and ran to her catching her in his arm just as the world around her turned black .

a/n sorry about the late update I try updating every Sunday . Hope u enjoy . 😀