Larry fics

Give Me Therapy

Therapy

My ship went down in a sea of sound

When I woke up alone,
I had everything
A handful of moments, I wished I could change

And a tongue like a nightmare that cut like a blade

Harry didn't know when or why things went wrong. He was lying on his bed grabbing the cover and breathing slowly. He felt the similar itch in his hands that he had felt many times before. He tried to fight his urge but slowly the voice in his head was taking over. "You know your a fail Harry, right? Just a little nothing" the voice taunted. He shut his hands over his ears trying to block out the noise. "Just give in Harry you know he doesn't actually love you. He just feels bad because you are such a loser". "NO!" Harry screamed into his empty room. The voice was talking about Louis.

Louis was Harry's boyfriend of three years. They started dating when they met on the X-factor and instantly fell in love. Louis helped Harry forget about all the pain and abuse he went through before. All the memories of bullying, parents fighting, and self hatred left Harry's mind because of Louis. Of course Louis never actually found out about him but he helped him without knowing. That meant the world to Harry.

Sometimes he would wake up alone and he was still unhappy. Even with all the fame, money, and fans that he had. We had everything but happiness and He didn't understand why. The voice in his head told him that he didn't deserve any of it. He believed it.


In a city of fools, I was careful and cool
But they tore me apart like a hurricane
A handful of moments, I wished I could change
But I was carried away

Harry always knew that he was gay. He just didn't know why people found it so bad. Some of his friends stopped talking to him after he came out. His own father abandoned him because of his sexuality. Then, management stepped in.

Management was the worst of all. Constantly telling Harry and Louis that they couldn't stand next to each other or talk to each other. During interviews they were either in separate rooms or on further sides of the room. If the fans even suspected one tiny thing that could some how link Harry and Louis together they stopped it. They made Louis date this girl named Eleanor Calder who Harry loathed. And she knew it and used that against him. Whenever she had to come to events with them she would always rub Louis is everyone's face. Holding his hand, kissing him, and whisper random things into his ears. Louis knew that this bothered Harry but he couldn't do anything. He wasn't allowed to. Then Louis started hanging out with Eleanor more. Going to her house, being pictured together, for a period of time Louis ignored Harry. He almost forgot his birthday if it wasn't for Niall tweeting Harry "Happy birthday". He only spoke to him when they were at concerts or in the limo on the way to award ceremonies.

This hurt Harry even more. Watching them broke him inside, slowly. Of course Louis comforted him when he was sad but not all the time. Hiding his emotions was so easy for easy. It was like a game that he could almost never loose. It almost amused Harry on how well he could manipulate people into thinking that he was fine. But in reality he was broken. Which was probably the reason why he went over the edge and lead to his own self destruction.


Give me a therapy,
I'm a walking travesty

But I'm smiling at everything

Therapy, you were never a friend to me

And you can keep all your misery

He sat on his bathroom floor, letting his tears fall from eyes. He dug his nails into thighs in anger. Sometimes he would wake up in different places in his room or house because he had cried himself to sleep. If Louis still lived with him he would come and find him and make him feel better. But Louis wasn't allowed to live with him anymore. Management forced Harry to move out to a different house a few streets away from the other boys. That was when Harry finally shattered. He thought of it has reaching his breaking point. Then he turned towards an addiction that could never stop.