Possibly one of the wildest days I've had ever? Since I'd never been... shall we say, romantically inclined toward someone this strongly?
So of course, I had to ask advice from my friend, whose partner has been with them for a while? I think, around 4... 5 years? Taking into account the new year.
So of course I flipped out. What did I—quiet, reserved 19-year-old—know about relationships?
Here's the entry, and the text messages that follow. For context, my friend and I were at the bus stop waiting to go back home, and the guy walked up behind me, tapped me on the shoulder, and pulled me aside to talk with him.
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Hoooooo,baby. It really seemed that way, didn't it? I believed it was true, that we could get into a relationship. We were—are—extremely good friends.
Well, it's not like I have trust issues now—and I say that solely because I don't know what it's like to be heartbroken. It's quite a foreign concept to me.
Of course, did I know how to flirt? No. Did I know how to date? No. I've always been too shy/naive/scared-of-judgement to "put myself out there"... whatever that means. Consider it corroborating evidence for my statement above.
But did that stop me from liking him? Did it make me sad that we might never get in a relationship? Do I, once again, sound like a naive teenager?
...No.
(Because I sound like a naive 21-year-old.)
Jokes aside, because his friendship happened. It is currently happening. And I'm very grateful for that.
