I love the feeling that courses through me when the quarter ends. When I have nothing to worry about for a number of days, when I can wake up at whatever time I want, not have to worry about studying and such...
And I really, really love when my mom explicitly says for me to take a break.
"Rest now."
"You have time off, you can read as much as you like."
"Now, take a break."
I mean that shit hits different.
Which is why I've decided to post this entry. Nothing is redacted, no PII here. And this is a small sampling of my freakouts that I've recorded religiously in this journal.
I had taken three final exams that day—a CS one, a microeconomics one, and this math one, about matrix algebra.
Because of COVID just kickin' its rear in gear, our disorganized (but generous) Professor decided to give us three attempts on this final, 6 hours each. We had a total of 36 hours to complete the exam.
So me, burnt out, brain frizzled, I took the test in the evening to get it over with—notebook and calculator and notes at the ready. We were allowed everything, open book, but no talking to each other.
Here's the entry.
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Ahh, the good old days. When I didn't have to worry about breaks being overtaken by... something. All I cared about was getting over a 90% in each of my classes so I could make the Dean's List in hopes of redeeming myself from my old university, the one I had transferred out of.
Well, that was Round 2 of making the Dean's List! I've learnt just recently that it won't get me graduating with honors (even now, even though my GPA has improved so much, it's nowhere near the benchmark). But... I'm alright with that. It's a major step up from the old uni.
I feel like I actually have a life here, whereas the old uni was too big for little freshman me.
And when I say the old uni was big, I mean at one point there were over four hundred students meeting for a lecture, three times a week. I had absolutely zero contact with my professors. I was invisible.
Now? My best friend who happens to live across the street from me goes with me to school, and as I've said before, I've met a crush here and formed a pretty close bond with them and my other friends.
TL;DR - who doesn't love a little free time, without inner or outer judgement?
