my world

part 2

Tw: Rape mention

They were so grown up. I almost forgot almost 50 people stood in the room with us. Gabriel saw I had spotted the boys and walked towards me, he knelt down besides me and whispered into my ear, "they're in shock.. go easy.."

I nodded my head before getting up and slowly walking towards them. Enzo was almost as tall as me... I'm 5 foot 8 which is average height for a woman but he's a 14 year old boy..

I just stared at him for a moment.. so grown up. "Victoria?.." he sighed.. and with that I started crying. Then he began crying too. Before I knew it I had pulled him into a hug. My little boy. No longer so little.

"I'm so sorry I couldn't be there to raise you!" I apologised over and over again. "I can't believe your 14! Judt yesterday you used to clutch onto me and I'd sing you to sleep!" I chuckled while slowly pulling away from the hug. "Yeah I missed that.. Gabriek hasn't exactly got the right pitch for your song!" He joked as Gabriel shoved him playfully.

"At least I tried!" He muttered, "you wouldn't stop sobbing the first month!" Month?! Yikes..

"Your singing made it ten times worse!" Lorenzo laughed. I saw the second youngest boy of the whole family staring up at me. At least he was still little.

"Luca.." I gave him a soft smile. He was still small enough for me to crouch down. He was clearly trying not to show too much emotion. Just like his oldest brother when I first met him.

"Where's my smiley boy gone?" I giggled. Suddenly he jumped forward and clutched onto me.

"I missed you so much!" I heard him sniffle. Making it clear he was crying. I stroked his hair. It was weird to see them bith grown up. In suits. Training to run this mafia in the future. Showing no emotion untill it takes over them.

"I'm sorry I left, but I'm here now.. and I'm staying.." I promised. I began pulling away from the hug and admired both my boys.

"Ugh stop growing!!!" I hissed jokingly making them both laugh.

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It had been an emotional night of greeting everyone again. A solid 2 hours. It was midnight before Gabriel finnaly managed to snatch me away to come to bed.

I didn't have any clothes at the moment as Gabriel has out them all up in the attic.. said it hurt too much to look at them everyday. So I was in his hoodie and boxers ad shorts.

We lay in bed just holding eachother.. our faces just inches away as they rested on our pillows.

"Its okay to be sad Gabe.. you killed your wife tonight.. that must've been so upsetting.. I'm so sorry.." I rubbed his cheek with my thumb. He simply scoffed. My eyebrows furrowed at him.

"She was annoying anyway. I was rather eager to kill her to be honest.." he chuckled but stopped when I smacked his arm.

"Stop it! She was still a human! Annoying or not she deserved to live longer!" I scolded. My eyes began to well up as I thought about the five years I spent imprisoned... beaten.. even raped.. not just by Michael but anyone who wanted to.. I was a sex doll too them.

I saw Gabriel staring at me confused as tears began to sting my cheeks. I pushed his hands off me. I hated that other men had touched my body. It was traumatising...

I turned to face away from him. But he only got closer and wrapped his arms round my waist.

"I'm sorry.. I didn't realise I had hurt you.." he placed a few kisses on my shoulder just like he used to.. but it haunted me. Over 100 men. All done different things. Every part of my body touched, kissed, groped..

"Please stop." I snapped at him. He stopped but stared at me in shock. "But.. you used to love when I done that.." he sounded hurt. I knew I had to tell him.

I turned to face him again.. tears welled in my eyes as I thought about it. I swallowed the lump in my throat.

*Gabriel's pov

She turned to face me again. I could tell she wanted to tell me something but couldn't for some reason.

"Its okay... you can tell me anything.. talk to me.. whats up?"
I whispered soothingly. With that she broke.

"During the 5 years.. I was imprisoned in Michael's hq.. and uh.. he told everyone there that whenever their horny.. use me. So... not only did Michael rape me securely assault me.. but over 100 men too.. probably 200 people in total.. their Is not one part of me that doesn't remind me of what someone did.." she sobbed.

I felt.. this guilt.. that I wasn't there to help.. oblivious to what was happening.. for five whole years. I wanted to hug her... but I didn't want to hurt her.

"Can.. can I hold you?" I stumbled over my words. Still in shock. The girl nodded. As soon as she had consented I quickly pulled her in. She sunk into my body, gripping onto me as if it was that or death.

But I had been there before.. 5 years ago.. gripping onto her body. Because it was that or death.. well I thought it was.