Sex Therapist - BTS KTH

Chapter Six

The same door I have now visited 6 times was in front of me. Its been a good month or two I've been seeing Dr Kim, and its helping me to feel confident but not helping me have sex with Haneul, not to the sessions fault but the fact he really isn't interested in me anymore. We rarely speak, hes always busy at work and sleeping as soon as he gets home. I do think something suspicious is going on, but I can't be sure until I find some kind of evidence. He doesn't even look me in the eyes anymore, it's like he's hiding something. Near 5 months without sex. It's driving me crazy. I can feel myself being frustrated even if I didn't particularly enjoy having sex it made me feel needed and wanted.

I knocked on the door ready to hear that deep voice once again. "Come in" I smiled making my way inside and shutting the door behind me. I took my usual seat and so did he. He smiled at me before clicking his pen and getting ready to take notes he looked at me hopefully, "Still no sex" I said laughing slightly knowing thats what he wanted to know, "Your boyfriend must be a crazy man" Dr Kim chuckled, his laugh was even deep and attractive god this man. Ever since Nari said I should just sleep with him its been stuck in my mind. I hate to admit it even to myself but he is all I can think about sometimes. And its driving me a little crazy, hes a professional I very much doubt he plans on sleeping with any of his clients.

I laughed a little again, "I do think he is just getting too old to care" I covered my mouth a little as I laughed, "But he's only 31!" Dr Kim said checking his notes quickly, "Men that age are still very sexually active" I shrugged slightly "Maybe he just isn't interested in me anymore" I sat back in my chair getting more comfortable. "He would be crazy to not see whats in-front of him, your a young woman of 24 years, your funny, loving, caring and attractive" Dr Kim chuckled at himself and I joined laughing slightly picking up on his list even calling me attractive. "I don't know Dr Kim this relationship really doesn't seem to be progressing any further so it may just be a time to call it quits and just do hook ups" I said jokingly, but from the look on his face he took it literally. "So why don't you break up with him? If it truly isn't going anywhere there is no harm in calling it in now" He sat forward in his chair his arms on his legs, leaning towards me, I could slightly see through the gap in his shirt.

This man is slowly driving me insane. I don't know if its the lack of sex in my life but he really is making me gasp and shiver at the most simple things. I gulped slightly before smiling at him "Do you really encourage hook ups?" I look into his eyes slightly as he smiles and they crease, "Sometimes. Because thats what some people need. Some people can't do relationships. The same person day in and out, the same routines. It isn't for everyone" He smiled as he leaned back in his chair, I nodded taking in what he was saying. Relationships aren't for everyone. Maybe thats why he doesn't have a girlfriend. He might not be a relationship man. He may be the kind to sleep around a little, that may be what helps him understand women more. The more he has been with the more he knows about pleasure.

I stood picking up my bag and jacket as the session comes to an end. "You know next session will be the evaluation?" Dr Kim says standing putting his notes on his desk, I nod smiling. I walk over and shake his hand, "I look forward to hearing what you have to say" I smile and look up at him one last time taking in his appearance and the smell of his cologne, before leaving the office. I walk down the hallway towards the reception seeing Jungkook sat waiting, "Hi Jungkook" I smile waving he stands up and gives me a hug which I return, "Its nice to see you again after that little drink and dance off in the club. Enjoy your session" I winked and laughed holding his arm slightly as I did so, I waved to Mrs Jun and saw Dr Kim leaning against the wall watching my exchange with Jungkook and Mrs Jun. I walked out towards my car, shaking my head a little wondering if my hug with Jungkook looked strange from Dr Kim's view, he may not have known me and Jungkook met outside this office and enjoyed a drink together as well as a dance.

My next session wasn't for another week so I had to find ways to entertain myself. Which shouldn't be too hard, I know Nari wants another night out but I'm not too sure. I may try book another photo shoot to earn some more money myself, just to add to my savings incase of emergency or I ever see anything I really want to buy. Living the adult life wasn't fun when it came to money and spending so I always kept myself safe by saving money.

I got home and took my shoes off but I heard a little noise coming from somewhere. I quietly walked to my kitchen grabbing a knife and walking round the house, my phone in hand ready to call the police if I needed to. I pushed open the bedroom door and saw them. I dropped the knife and turned my back instantly. He ran out of the bedroom pulling his shirt back on. "Ari! Ari its not what you think!" He shouts grabbing my arm, I pull my arm out of his grip. "Don't bother Haneul. I'll come back tomorrow to get my things. I knew you were cheating on me. It explains the months without sex. The months you couldn't even look me in the eyes" I turned and looked at him one more time, I lost my cool and punched him straight in the nose. "And I hope you and slut bunny have a good time. You fucking bastard. Tell her to get used to disappointing sex that only lasts minutes! Oh and by the way you never made me cum! I faked it every time to make you happy you jackass!" I slammed the door and walked towards my car, I sat in the drivers side. I let it out. I cried. And I cried hard. I knew this was what he was doing, but in our bed? in our home? he really had dropped to a new low. Nearly 3 years wasted, all that time is now gone. Hes such a fucking useless asshole. He couldn't keep his dick to himself. I tried so hard for months to please him and he never wanted me. He wanted that skank! I headbutted my steering wheel before wiping my eyes and starting the car.

Maybe I should take Nari up on that offer of going clubbing. A good night of getting drunk as a newly single woman. What could go wrong! Free drinks without guilt and I can dance with whoever I want!