A Weary Vampire

Chapter 27

I was sad. I was angry. But the thing I can still never believe was there were moments that I actually thought I could change him. I could make a better person, a better vampire out of him. It's absolutely disgusting of me, but it's just a few moments in the past, right? I don't have to feel bad about it forever. But then, it was still a very hard time for me, being suddenly thrown into the realizations that my feelings weren't real, it was just the other person making me believe it using compulsion. That... that everything was in fact fake. That we were never in love. Being hurt in this way, I think it was worse than being cheated on.

I would shut myself in my room all day, staring at the ceiling, bouncing my blank thoughts off of it. I had no idea what to do at night, so I took walks by the lake and around the library. Because the feelings weren't just limited to the hurt... it was also the fact that he was dangerous. He was a dangerous criminal, and I couldn't hide in my room forever.

But I was scared to go out, and I couldn't face him with a straight face, even if I, for an imagined second, wasn't scared of him by this point. So I sent the message to him eventually that I had a viral fever and couldn't get out for around a week. But I had to get myself together by that week's end, and did not look very hopeful for me.

I would have nightmares, and I would wake up, shaking and sweating. I would see him in my room in the day, holding a knife and asking me to kill myself where there was no such thing happening. I couldn't bring myself to let go of the emotions, or get a hold on to a solution.

Finally after a whole week, when my body was so weak I could barely walk 10 steps before getting dizzy, I realised that I still needed to fulfil my body's requirements. I went to the feeder room in the building and got my fangs on some blood. It put some of the life back inside my body, and in that moment I realised that even if I found a way to secure myself... What about the other people Aaron might prey on? What about other innocent lives he could lay his hands on, only because it was easy for him?

I couldn't just solve my problem, I had to find a way to solve the whole problem, I had to get Aaron at least some portion of the punishments of his actions, even if he can't get all of it being royalty.

I had to find a way. I had to find a solution.

But what way?

Even if I could get goons, first of all no one will wish to get it on with the probable future king, second of all what were the chances of him not having his own goons? These first tier type criminals always have them, quite often at hand.

Under the vampire laws, he was a member of the royalty, so the court doesn't hear anything against him, and even attempting to pursue charges against him there would be pointless. In fact I could even get in trouble for placing my doubts in the royalty, they were equivalent to gods in their status.

But then... What other options did I even have in those moments?

So I decided to look up more on vampire law in the library. I wanted, no I NEEDED to find a loophole in the law of the royals to get Aaron what he deserved. But it took every ounce of my power, and all hundred or so books the library hosted about vampire law and regulations to find out that the only way a royal may be punished for a crime is when the majority of the royal family vetoes for it. And that would be quite impossible. Infact, considering he was the only child.... It was a stupid option to even consider when I had no real proofs for his crimes. How could I ever prove that he used compulsion? There's no way I could do that. And all the other stuff, well let's just say he hid his tracks very well, considering there were very low suspicions of the trade even happening, let alone him being actively involved in it. It was just too hard, too complicated, too messed up to try to figure out on my own.

And this was messing with my brain.

But I kept looking, working on it. What choice did I even have? I couldn't take help from either Ivory or Nisha too. Suspicions this bad against a royal, without proof? That would raise questions on me, wouldn't they? I didn't want to come into the view of the Royal Guard, or worse, Aaron himself.

So I finally decided... to keep up the show. With Aaron, I mean. If I wanted not to raise suspicions.... Well, that was my best option at the moment. But I kept doing research and detective work in all the time I could save. Because I had a mission. Even if I wasn't in any direct danger from him right now, others were. And I had to do something about that. And the sooner, the better.

And I mean, if you look at it in a totally different light... I was the typical wattpad girlfriend, with the vampire mafia, morally grey royal boyfriend.... Except I was totally, absolutely, most definitely disgusted by it.