stuck - ksimon ff

stuck - 2

Simon Minter.

It's been a whole week of the Sidemen filming video's after video's. And to be completely honest, I haven't been feeling the greatest as if now.
There was a knock on my door, but I couldn't be arsed to go and open it.

"I'll just let myself in.", He laughed casually, strolling into my room.
"What do you want?", I hissed. Jokingly, of course.

"You. We're going to film a MoreSidemen video in the main room.", As he spoke, I rolled my eyes. I couldn't bare filming more this week.

"Jesus. Tell them I'm not coming.", I said, my tone annoyed.
"Wait- huh? Why?", He seemed so shocked, can't he see I'm feeling like dogshit?

"I feel sick, so I'm not gonna sit there making a video when I don't feel good.", I told him.
"Oh, okay. I'll cancel the filming.", He said, he sounded very concerned. I just couldn't put my finger on why.

"Why? Just go on without me.", I replied, more casual than anything.
"No. Can't be asked to do that.", He joked. He typed the following message in the group chat.

The Troops

JJ: Yo guys. We're not filming today, we don't need to be ahead of schedule. Simon isn't feeling the greatest so that's why.

Josh: What a sweet boyfriend you are, get well Simon! ❤️‍🩹
Ethan: Innit?

JJ: Oi shut up
Simon: Thanks Zerkaa!

Vik: Hope you're feeling alright mate!
Simon: Thanks bro :)

Harold: idc
Simon: Rude.

"No need for that, Jide. But thank you.", I sent him a warm smile as I snuggled my covers. He stared at me while I did so.

"Need anything? A cup of tea? I could get you food, too.", He asked.
The end of my bed drooped a little, meaning that JJ had sat down.

"It's fine, JJ.", I replied faintly, feeling my eyelids become very droopy.
"Are you sure? I don't mind grabbing you something.", He smiled at me, tracing patterns on my leg.

He always does this to calm me down. I didn't need any calming down, so I don't really know what it was for. But it felt soothing. I didn't want him to stop. Not soon, anyway.

"Maybe a tea, actually.", I gave in.
His smile grew wider, "I knew it. I'm on it!", JJ got up and closed my door ever so slightly. He does that to annoy me. To be honest, I'm used to it now.

After a while, he came back. A cup of tea and a bag of crisps.
"Here you go!', He babied, putting down my - now to be breakfast - on my bedside table.
"Thank you, Jide.", I murmured, taking the tea in my hands. It was so warm, I loved myself some tea.

He sat down on my bed again, this time not at the end of it. He sat next to me, in my bed.
I stared at him for time, he was so gorgeous. But I can't think of my best friend like that. I just can't.
He asserted his gaze and turned it to me. I immediately tried to turn away, making it look like I wasn't looking at him.

"You turned a second too late, Minter.", He joked, grinning a little.
Oh shit.
"What do you mean?", I acted dumb. I wasn't gonna let him think I was looking at him.
"I saw you looking at me through the mirror. And you turned around aggressively. Gotta work on that, buddy.", He teased. He always does. He likes to see me suffocate over his actions.

"Just shut up. I wasn't looking at you. I was just-", He cut me off.
"Staring. It's okay, babe. Don't worry.", He knows so well nicknames like that make me blush like a mad man.
I hate him for knowing that.

"Whatever, JJ.", I scoffed.
He just laughed at me. His laugh makes me want to laugh as well.
But that's not happening.

———

JJ fell asleep in my bed. He wasn't even tired. At least, he claimed he wasn't.
He was spooning me while I was on my phone.
He's a cuddly sleeper.

I couldn't fall asleep for some reason. I had to stay awake. I wanted to just close my eyes, but they forced themselves open. I just pulled out my phone and scrolled through Instagram.

Ethan posted with his new girlfriend. I like her, she's a very nice person.
Josh posted Sidemen related shit. He uses his insta for Sidemen.
Not needed.

JJ had posted a picture two hours ago. My fingers double-tapped faster than they should've.
He was promoting shoes. I can't lie to you and say that I was looking at the shoes.
I was looking at him. His clothes.
They'd look better on the floor.
He's such a fit guy.

I really need to stop having these thoughts.
He's my best friend. Jesus.

"You like the shoes?", JJ whispered, which made me jump in shock.
"Fucking hell, JJ. No need to scare me.", I sighed.
He giggled. He stretched his arm out so he could scroll on my phone.

He probably saw that I was staring at his picture.
What if he thinks I like him? I don't.
I'm not gay. I don't like him.

He was now spooning me and taking full control of my phone.
Great. I mean it, though. I'm smiling the entire time.

That was, until he got a notification.
His face lit up, smiling like crazy.
I started overthinking it.

Does he have a significant other that I don't know about? I mean, I'm his best friend so I should know.
And if he has a girlfriend, why is he spooning me?
Right, I'm just his friend. Nothing more.
For fuck's sake, Simon.

He stood up from my bed.
"Where are you going?", I asked him, turning around to meet his nervous, yet happy eyes.
"I'm- going out. I'll be home soon!", He smiled nervously, turning to see the door.

I sighed, "Okay, bye Jide.", I exclaimed.
"Bye Simon!", He called from the hallway.
He's up to something.
And it's killing me that I don't know what.

———

It was 12:43, midnight. JJ hasn't come home.
I started to worry. What if something had happened?
I pulled out my phone and texted him.

sent: 12:45 AM
Simon: JJ where are you? It's 12 and you haven't returned yet.
read

sent: 12:50
JJ💟: Hey i'm coming home soon dw x
read

sent: 12:50
Simon: Right. You didn't answer my question?
Where are you?
read

sent: 12:50
JJ💟: Don't worry about it, Simon. I'll be home soon
read

sent: 12:51
Simon: JJ please tell me?
read

sent: 12:51
JJ💟: Jesus fuck, Simon. You're acting like you're my wife.
I'll be home soon.
read

———

I held my head. Was I being annoying? I'm just worried
I'm reading back the conversation.
Overthinking everything.

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