stuck - ksimon ff

stuck - 7

Simon Minter.

Lately, me and JJ have been getting into so many arguments.
I'd like to think he's the problem, that he starts every argument.
But I'd be lying to myself.

They all somehow evolve around Amelia. I mean, I can tell the boys are also sick of it.
During shoots, me and him have tiny arguments here and there.
But none of them compare to what happens at home.

———

A Sidemen shoot is taking place at around 2 p.m. I was excited, because I've been pitching this idea
for ages. And it's finally happening.

As I leave my room, fully clothed and ready to leave, JJ is sat there.
He's in joggers, topless.

"You're leaving already?", JJ asked, making me roll my eyes slightly.
"No, I'm just dressed. Got a problem with it?", I hiss.

"Jesus, Simon. I just asked you if you were leaving.", He rubbed his temples, sighing his sentence out.
"And I'm just replying.", I murmur as I head to the kitchen.

While I'm making breakfast, his phone rings.
He hurries over to the hallway, picking the phone up.
I manage to eavesdrop.

"Hey babe. Yes, I'll be there straight after. Babe I promise. I won't go out with the rest. Bye, love you.".

Who does this bitch think she is?
I annoyedly finish preparing my breakfast and sit down.

As JJ places himself back on the sofa, I stared him in the eyes.
Not a soft look, a mad one.

"Fucking hell, what did I do now?", JJ replied, seemingly annoyed.
"Hm? Nothing. Have fun with your little girlfriend after the shoot, yeah?", I spat, finishing my breakfast.

"Why are you always onto me for going out with my girlfriend?! You're being so FUCKING annoying!", He yelled.
I always get scared when he yells. However, this time, it was different.

"Why do you always skip us for that bitch?! Can't you fucking see she's using you?!", I yelled back, furious.
He didn't expect my backtalk. In fact, I usually don't have the courage to say anything.

"Don't call her a bitch. Why are you even mad about all of this? Ever since I've announced my fucking girlfriend you've been pissed at me. What the fuck is wrong? You're my mate! Not my fucking boyfriend?!.", He angrily yelled, clenching his fists.

My heart dropped. He's right. I'm not his boyfriend. Just his mate.
So why did my heart drop?

I gulped. "You're right, I'm not.", I murmur.
"Then why the fuck are you mad?!", He replied, a little less angry.

"I-", I couldn't talk. He had a point, why am I mad about him being in a relationship?
JJ's expectant face didn't help.

"Don't bother talking to me today.", I spat, walking towards the door.

———

During the Sidemen shooting, things between me and JJ were awkward to say the least.
We've been distant for the entire shoot. I wasn't excited about today. I think Josh noticed that.

Everyone else had fun.
Ethan and Harry being in their own little world, giggling about everything the other person says.
JJ and Tobi contemplating whether the other had bigger lips.

Joshua was busy chasing the dynamic duo, being Ethan and Harry
And Vik on his phone as per usual.

I wanted to have fun. But my body didn't let me. I had flashbacks to this morning.
I was being such a prick towards him. He just asked me if I was leaving.
But for some reason, he angers me.

It's definitely not because Amelia ended our little trip the other day. And definitely not because I saw them kiss that exact day. Nope, not the case.

I mean, notice how everything is about her? Am I the problem?
I feel like I am.

I start every argument.
I never respond nicely to whatever he says.
I'm ruining him and Amelia's bond, as well as ours.
I'm the problem, aren't I?

"Hey buddy.", my train of thoughts comes to a halt when Josh dips down next to me.
"Hello mate.", I murmur, focussing on my phone.

"Put your phone away, please? I'm trying to talk to you.", Josh asked.
I slip my phone into my pocket and face a worried Joshua.
"What's up?", I say after a long silence.

"How about you tell me what's up? You've been distant for the entire shoot! You were really excited for today. What happened? You can talk to me, you know that.", The bearded boy comforts.

"I know I can talk to you, Josh. But there's nothing to say.", I weakly smiled.
"If you think I was born yesterday, you've got me wrong mate.", Josh laughs.

"Does it involve JJ?", He shook his head.
"Maybe?", I look down.
"Okay."

———

FILLER!
THIS BOOK IS FILLED WITH DRAMA, THATS THE GENRE OF THIS BOOK ANYWAY..

GOOD OR BAD ENDING?! LMK WHAT U PREFER.

- Sarah