stuck - ksimon ff

stuck - 15

Simon Minter.

Most of the boys left. Josh went to use the restroom and JJ and Tobi were placed on the sofa.

I went into my room, locking the door. I wanted sone alone time after being surrounded by people 24/7. I told JJ I needed time. Was that a huge mistake? We've been less close and I feel like JJ has lost feelings.

My thoughts are stopped as my phone rang.
Bog. I pick up the phone, waiting for him to talk.

"Hi.", He croaked out after a long, unbearable silence.
"Hey.", I reply, not sure what to say.
"I'll just get straight to the point. I like you. And seeing you with JJ hurts me. I know that you probably don't feel the same. But I really fell for you, Si.", Harry explained.

After his little speech impediment I kept quiet.

"Harry- I, I'm sorry. I should've never kissed you and got your hopes up. It was just the alcohol. I don't want to hurt you, at all, but I just don't know lately.", I said after building up the courage to say something.

"What do you mean, you don't know lately?"
"I don't know what I want. I mean, I told JJ I needed time. I backed away from you.
I just can't focus on this department of life.", I explain.

"I get it, Si. Why did you tell JJ you needed time?"
"Because- I don't know why I'm telling you this. Honestly. This might just hurt you more."
"No! No, I swear. I'm here for you. Speak your heart out.", He said as I heard the smile in his face.

"Because of the whole Amelia thing. I mean, their relationship was the reason I was drinking that night, anyway. We got into fights after fights and I just couldn't take it. All because of her."

"It was on JJ for not putting you above her. He missed out big time.", Harry spoke, his words encouraging.
"Thank you, Bog."

"Just know that I'll always be here. And I'll wait if you need time to get over- never mind."
"See, that's the thing. I can't get over him but I don't want to hurt you.", I ranted.
"It's okay, I get it. Bye Simon!", He said, his tone sad.
"Bye.", I greeted.

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"Yo!", Tobi yelled as he jumped on my bed.
"Oh, hi.", I calmly spoke.

"Who were you on the phone with? And who can't you get over?", Tobi teased as my cheeks burned red.
"Wait- how much did you hear?", I mutter, hoping he didn't hear much.
"Not all of it, but most of it. Now, please do tell me.", Tobi asked, smiling.

I know I can trust Tobi, but I hate speaking about this topic.
Love.

"I- No.", I stutter.
"I think I know who you were calling. Unless you know someone else with the name Bog.", Tobi teased.
"Oh, shut up. It's not like that.", I laugh, trying to shift the conversation.

"Then what is it like?", Tobi asked.
"Well, me and Bog kissed.", I said, immediately being cut off by his voice.
"What?!", He exclaimed, almost yelled.

"I know! I know, but it was only the buzz of alcohol and the heat of the moment that made me do it. I don't even like Harry. And I know it's peak, but I can't lie to him.", I spoke.

"Well, who 'can't you get over'?", He continued to question.
"If I tell you, promise me not to tell anyone?"
"Promise."
"JJ."

Tobi squeaked in excitement. He started clapping his hands and smiling like mad. I don't understand why he's reacted this way.

"So- so, the kiss did mean something to you?"
"Yeah, I suppose.", I shrug.

"Has it happened before?"
"Yeah."

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