Omniscient
One Month Later
Beyonce
"How are you Beyonce?" Dr. Gills crossed his right foot over the other, studying the doctor who sat before him.
"Better..." She simply replied transfixing her eyes on him.
"Mhmm..." He replied keeping eye contact with her. She was trying to intimidate her way out of this meeting today, Dr. Gills was not about to let that happen. "I heard you flew to New York unexpectedly. Is that true?"
"You know the answer, why you are asking me?" She snapped.
That's how she's been these days snappy, her attitude was lace with a vengeance, she felt like this treatment was a waste of her time.
Dr. Gills chuckled. "You're still uncooperative I see..."
"Hmmm." She said rolling her eyes.
"Your mom filled me in on what occurred...And I want to first extend my sincere condolences to you."
Beyonce shifted in her seat uncomfortably, not ready to take on the conversation she knew was foreseen to come.
"Doesn't matter she didn't want the baby anyway..."
"And why is that?" Dr. Gills questioned.
"She hates me..."
"And why is that?"
Beyonce rolled her eyes. "You know why, we been talking about this for weeks now. Why do I have to keep repeating myself?"
"Because you're not coming to terms and taking full accountability for the damage you inflicted on that young lady."
Beyonce kissed her teeth. "I apologized..."
Dr. Gills shook his head looking at Beyonce unamused. "Via text message...Heartwarming." Dr. Gills mocked. He could tell he was getting the angry southern belle right where he wanted her to be.
"Have you reached out or checked on her since the loss? It's well over a month."
"No." Beyonce said disappointingly.
"Why? And please don't say because she hates you. We all know that's a fact."
Beyonce closed her eyes remembering the look in Onika's eyes the last time she saw her. They were filled with so much revulsion and hatred toward her.
"I'm scared..." Beyonce whispered, she felt ashamed even saying that. Here she was multimillionaire, CEO and best cardiothoracic surgeon in the country afraid to face the only woman she cares for.
Dr. Gill's placed his hand under his chin studying her- he got her just where he needed her- exposed.
"Don't you think she's afraid and lonely right now?"
"I know but if I reach out now-." Beyonce sucked in a deep breath to hold back the warm tears threatening to fall. "If I reach out now my emotions would be speaking for me and I'll say something that may hurt me in the long run."
"Like what." Dr. Gills pushed.
Beyonce annoyingly rolled her eyes, causing a tear to fall. She wasn't afraid of crying in front of her therapist. He's seen her breakdown only onetime before and that was the day Ciara had left.
"I love her..." Beyonce choked. "I-I thought I was incapable...of falling in love again. I tried to convince myself that I wasn't. So, using Cardi to perpetrate hurt, was my way of masking my honest desire for Onika..." Beyonce shook her head afraid that she had revealed too much already.
