Scars and Nightmares

chapter 38

Goitsimedi GM Tholo

“Sedi did you take the forms I signed last night?” I shouted as I made her a tuna and mayonnaise sandwich. She came from the room with toothpaste all over her mouth. It was that time of the month and she was very moody and tired.
“Why can't I stay at home today? I'm not feeling okay.”
“Sedi mma, you can't skip school because you're on your period. You have some mock test to write remember?”
“I don't want to go!” she threw herself on the couch and cried. KB stood at the door, looked at me then at Sedi.
“And then?” KB.
“She’s on her period.”
“Yah no bophelo ke entrance ya go tsena! Kubi shems.” I looked at KB making the situation worse. I was the only normal one around here, everyone else is crazy.
“Okay, listen Sedi, go to school attend a few classes and write your mock test then you can ask the school to call me and I'll come pick you up.”
“Okay fine.” I wiped the toothpaste and gave her, her lunch then her ride hooted outside.
“Did you take that ginger juice?”
“Yes!”
I leaned back on the couch and tried calling Thobile but it just rang and rang, just as I was about to give up she answered.
“Hello.” her voice was very rough.
“Are you sick babe?”
“I think so, my throat hurts a lot.”
“Sorry, I was just checking how you're settling in and thought we could go out but we'll do that some other time.”
“No, I'll be okay, where are we going?”
“Thobile you don't sound okay, we'll go some other time.”
“Mxm.”
“Okay how about you come this side and we watch movies instead?”
“Okay fine. Why are you up so early?”
“It’s not early but I have to be somewhere else today.”
“Friend someone is calling we'll talk later. I love you.” then she hung up. I called her back but she didn't answer. I wanted to be the one to hang up, I called so I must hang up.
“KB at what time are you leaving?”
“In the evening not now it's very early.”
I had a message from Rachel reminding me that she was going to send someone to come and pick me up. I got up and washed the dishes then got ready to meet up with Rachel. I wonder what type of person her husband was.
–
I wore my white sundress with nude sandals and let my braids loose. KB was on the bed staring at me,
“Keng?”
“Where are you going?”
“Out.”
“With who?”
“Uhm, just out. Bathong KB.”
“I was just asking yoh!”
“Don’t forget that someone is coming to fetch their cake order and you must go withdraw some money we need to pay rent.”
“Do you think her savings will last us until this year ends?”
“Defnitely not! That's why I have to do this.” shit, I was not supposed to say the second part out loud.
“What are you planning on doing GM?” she asked approaching me.
“Nothing, look I have to go now. Don't forget to withdraw the money okay.” I ran out and left KB with questions. Me and my mouth.

Rachel Ndlovu

Terry and I had already went to the hospital to do blood tests then we drove to back home where Goitsimedi would find us.
A public space would just bring us unnecessary attention. I looked at the time; ticking off the minutes. I watched Terry as he video called his mom and sister. On another day I would be conversing with them but my nerves were all over the place. Goitsimedi might change her mind and not show up anymore.
I read the text from my doctor telling us that Goitsimedi arrived and everything went well. Now the waiting game began. I checked if  the chicken and mushroom pies were done. She went to a culinary school so she knows her way around the kitchen. I removed the ginger snap biscuits, some were badly burnt. With my elbows on the sink I let out a shaky sigh. How hard could making biscuits be.. I followed the recipe now what was this? I felt hands around my waist.
“At least some were not burnt right?” he turned me around. “Calm down babe she'll be here soon.”
“What if she decides that she doesn't want to this anymore? What then Terry?” I laid on his chest sobbing. “I would die Terry, I need this.” he rubbed me until I calmed down. He continued with the rest of the biscuits the he made the green as well as the fruit salad. He made a beef and bacon stir fry in case she didn't like the pie.
He placed everything on the table then came to me.
“I’ll be back babe, let me go and change before she comes okay.” I nodded and watched as he disappeared into our room. Minutes later I heard a knock on the door, I dragged my feet to the door and there she was. She looked gorgeous in her sundress.
“I thought you changed your mind.”
“I almost did.” she said walking in.
“My husband will be here soon he had to chat into something else. Would you like something to drink?”
“Mango juice would be great.” I stopped in my tracks and looked at her, mango juice was Kuhle’s favourite juice. She would kill for it. I turned to ask her if I heard her right, I let out a soft scream once I saw Kuhle sitting next to her. Kuhle wrapped her arm around Goitsimedi.
I quickly went to the kitchen and brought the juice. I sat on a different couch, Kuhle was still there just staring at me.
“Babe were you talking to me or...” Terry said walking down the stairs but stopped once Goitsimedi raised her head. He looked like he saw a ghost. I turned to Goitsimedi and saw Kuhle smiling. Now I had no idea if he could see her as well or what was going on.
Goitsimedi opened her mouth to say something but she looked down instead. Terry walked to us and sat next to me, his focus very much on Goitsimedi.
“You!” he said to her. “We have met before.”
“I know..” she replied.
What the hell was going on here? I looked at them both waiting for an explanation on how these two knew each other.
“Can someone tell me what's going on here?”
“Rachel can we talk about why I'm here. You can ask such questions later not now.”
“No I would like to know what the hell is going on here. Someone tell me something.”
“Rachel do you want me to continue carrying your baby or should I leave?”
“Fine! Everything is ready and the insemination will happen next week Monday evening. After two weeks you will go see a doctor to confirm if you're pregnant or not.” I looked at Terry who was still gawking at Goitsimedi. He said he slept with a nurse and she's definitely not one. How do they know each other then?

“Okay. Now let's talk about me still having rights to this baby.” she turned to Terry. “Wena Brock Lesnar what do you say about this? You're agreeing to all of this?”
Who the hell was Brock Lesnar now.
“Goitsimedi I explained why I made that clause. I thought you understood, what now?”
“I was talking to your husband. I need to know what's his take on this. Maybe he knows someone who would help him with the baby if something happens to you.”
“Goitsimedi you're already using your eggs and that means you're the mother so you having rights will not change a thing.” Terry replied, I held his hand and squeezed.
“Okay fine. I'll meet you at the hospital next week Monday.”
“I had prepared something for us to eat.”
“I have to be somewhere, thanks but no thanks.” she took her bag and left.
I let out a sigh of relief once she was gone. This day had finally came. I was going to give him an heir, I was going to be someone's mother. I looked at him with a smile on my face.
“I love you.”

Goitsimedi GM Tholo

My phone rang as I sat in the car to fetch Sedi. Free transportation, why not.
I let the phone ring since I didn't know who the numbers belonged to. The person called again–
“Hello?”
“Ndoni yamanzi.”
My heart stopped beating immediately. My body went numb. If I was the one driving I would've collided with cars.
“Ntokazi?”
“Mabu.. Mabutho ke wena?”
“Ke nna Nana, it's me.. I miss you.”
Why was he doing this to me? My heart could not take this.
“Don’t do this to me Mabutho. Please..”
“Kodwa iqiniso nje ndoni yamanzi.”
“O batlang?” (what do you want?)
“I just needed to hear your voice.”
“Look Mabutho I'm busy and I.. I can't do this, bye.” I hung up before he said anything. I leaned back and listened to ‘Phakade lami’ playing on my phone. I missed him but I had to move on. I blocked the number he used to call. I blocked the old numbers as well.
–
I saw Sedi waiting outside with the security. She looked confused seeing me step out of the car. I had to sign her out.
“Ausi Goitsi?”
“Shut up!” I was trying so hard to not laugh at her facial expression.
“Whose car is this?”
“Ask no questions and hear no lies, tsena tlhe motho re tsamaye.” (get in so we can go..)
“Yeh!” she clapped once, as she got inside. “Where are my haters when I have a personal driver?” Sedi and I laughed as the driver reversed.
“How are you feeling?”
“Like someone is settingy insides in fire. I really tried being strong but the pain was getting to me.”
“Did you at least write the test?”
“Yeah and I'm glad it was a mock test. Ausi Goitsi yoh, ke bone satan face to face.”
“Askies muffin.” Sedi lay on my lap the entire trip back home.
I still couldn't believe that Rachel's husband is the same person who bumped into me at the hospital. We do live in a tiny world indeed.
–
“Sedi wake up we have arrived.”
“Hmm.” I shook her then she woke up and looked around.
I tried the door but it was locked. The lady opposite our room told us that KB left.
Sedi went straight to bed and I made her a hot water bottle. I looked at the signed terms and conditions while the water boiled. I had to find a place to hide them. I peeped through our room, Sedi was facing the wall. I snuck in then hid the brown envelope in between my clothes, with hopes that no one would find it. I went back and filled the water bottle and gave it to Sedi.