Scars and Nightmares

chapter 37

Rachel Ndlovu
Three weeks later..

I was at Queens surrogates, trying to iron things out.
“I told you that no court will allow this surrogacy to happen. This girl does not have a child. Just find another surrogate.”
“I want her, don't you understand? Listen Stepheny, we both know that finding a suitable surrogate might take months. Something that I don't have.”
“My hands are tight Rach, I really hoped I could help you out.”
“You can..” I looked at Stepheny knowing that he might not like what I was proposing.
“Rach!”
“I have not said anything just yet.”
“I know that look Rach. That look only means trouble and I want none of that trouble girl, none!”
“Trouble has always been my second name babe, but listen how about I get this girl to sleep with...” she didn't even let me finish what I wanted to say.
“No Rachel!”
“Let me finish what I wanted to say.”
“You want this hot girl to sleep with your handsome husband with hopes that she falls pregnant?”
“Then what? You know they could fall for each other and raise that baby together?”
“That won't happen.”
“You’re so certain of yourself babe, too certain. That girl is sex walking on two legs, don't get me wrong you're fine as hell as well but damn that girl yerr!”
“I know right! She's a flame but she doesn't know that yet. She has some insecurities.”
“I don't like this idea of yours. How do you not find it weird that you wouldn't mind your husband sleeping with another female, how is that normal? Rachel I think you're loosing it now friend.”
I walked to the huge window and looked at all the passing cars. I was definitely loosing my mind. I felt hands on my shoulders, Stepheny turned me around.
“You know if I could do anything, I would help you. Legal surrogacy is not going to work and we both know that. Yes you could bribe someone but it could still backfire.”
“Then what must I do, I'm desperate. After birth she will sign adoption papers and we part ways. Easy.”
“Where is my smart friend because this one in front of me right now,” she shook her head. “I don't know her.”
“If it means I must get them drunk then that's what I'll do, they'll wake up the next day in the same room. No turning back after that.”
Stepheny widened her eyes then laughed while returning to her seat.
“Do you really love Terry?”
“Is that a trick question?”
“Do you see Terry agreeing to this nonsense because the Terry that I know would never agree to such.”
“I’m about to find out..”
“Girl, what!”
“I’m heading to his office right after here, wish me luck.” I picked up my purse then hugged her.
“Wait! I think I have a better plan.” I closed the door and walked back to her.
“I’m listening..”
“I know someone at the fertility clinic who could help you with the insemination. Then you won't have to let your man sleep with another female.”
“Will he agree?”
“There’s nothing that money can't buy babe, you of all people know this. Let me talk to him and get a date when you could go see him to do the insemination. What do you say?”
“In the meantime, I'll go and talk to Terry. If he does not agree to the natural route, your person will have to pull through for us.” we shared one last hug then I left.
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I called Goitsimedi on my way to the hospital–
“Hello.”
“It’s me Rachel.”
“I know.” she sounded very exhausted, how would she feel once she was pregnant?
“I know we were supposed to meet yesterday to talk about the law process and all that. Do you think you could tell me over the phone?”
“There’s a part that said something about me using my own eggs. What's wrong with your own eggs? Using my eggs that would mean that the baby is mine and the bond is going to be very strong. You do know I could abort right?”
“I know that but my eggs are not an option. Is there something else?”
“If there was anything to happen to you, your husband and I would have full right to the baby? What bullshit is this Rachel? Why can't you give the rights to someone else? Mom or sister but someone, not me. Why am I being a surrogate then?”
   I arrived at the coffee shop then ordered some spicy Chai.
“I understand your concerns honestly but my mom is too old to be taking care of a child. My sister well that one drinks a lot she might forget that she's someone's guardian. I'm not saying anything is going to happen to me, I'm just saying just in case something does.”
“I don't know Rachel, this is a lot.
“R70K then? Half now and the rest after giving birth. You would have to sign the adoption papers after giving birth. Right now you will just sign these terms and conditions.”
“When am I meeting the husband, are you sure he wants this?”
“Listen I'll call you later with your answer.” I hung up once I saw Terry walking in with Dr Robinson.
I stood up, hugged her then kissed my husband.
“Get a room please!” she made faces but smiled as well. “It was great seeing you Rachel but I have to meet someone at the hospital.”
Once she left Terry took one of my spinach muffins and tried it out.
“Defnitely wouldn't order such.” he said chewing as though he was chewing on glass..
“I like them and they are very healthy.”
“No thank you!” he sipped on his orange juice. “Babe why are you here? My lunch is almost over.”
“Do I need a reason to see my husband?”
“Rachel.”
“Okay fine, our possible surrogate does not have any children.” Terry raised a brow.
“Sthepeny did mention that no court would approve our application, unless we bribe someone.” Terry coughed badly while looking at me.
“Did you say bribe? Did I hear you well?”
“Another solution is that you sleep with her.” I said that in a low tone. He didn't say a word. He was probably waiting for me to say I was joking.
“Baby!”
“Sleep with her..? Like have sex?”
I nodded.
“No.”
“But baby you said...”
“No Rachel. I'm not doing that.” he abruptly got up and left.
That was a long shot.