Scars and Nightmares

chapter 45

Goitsimedi GM Tholo

Months ago Terrence sister called asking to meet up with me. I did and we got along! She was a free spirit just like Thobile. I told her that I was not working and she told me to take my CV to Royal hills catering services. A week later I received a call that made me believe that things were about to change for the better. What she didn't tell me was that Royal hills, belonged to her boyfriend.
It felt so good to cook and bake for a crowd or just families. I still had my baking side hustle but I took less orders. KB and Sedi helped me on some days.
Arriving home from work I found Sedi cooking. I wrapped my arms around her waist and kissed her on the neck–
“It smells nice in here.”
“I tried to cook in a hurry because I was not sure how the smell would treat you.”
“I’m good, what are we cooking?” I opened the pots– creamy spinach and livers greeted me, the other pot had fried rice. “This looks so delicious!”
“I hope it tastes good.”
“Wena you take after me.. don't tell KB I said so.” we laughed. “So I know for a fact that it's going to be delicious. How was school?”
“Not bad, how was work?”
“Leave those pots, let's go have a seat. Are you okay, like really okay?”
She heaved a sigh.
“Marshmallow, I need you to know that I'll always be here when you need to talk. I don't want you to think that I'm neglecting you, now that I'm about to have a baby. You're still my baby. Will you tell me if anything is bothering you?”
She started crying..
“Nana what's going on, you have been acting strange.”
“Thapelo was here two weeks back when you and Sedi were still at work.”
“Sedi did he do anything to you?”
“No but he freaked me out ausi Goitsi. I didn't know what to do and I thought he would, he would you know..”
“Shhh, it's okay sweety I'm here he would never do anything to you. Next time if tries coming in, there is pepper spray over there and in our room. Use it and show him no remorse.” she nodded.
“I’m going to rest call me once dinner is ready.”
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I had a quick bath before resting. I had a strong urge to call Mabutho but I didn't want him to think I was desperate. How I missed him and the sex. I laughed out loud. Then there was Terry as well, he was starting to catch feelings and I was afraid that my hormones were the reason why we thought we have some connection.  What would happen after I've given birth and I realise that we're actually not in love? All I want for us, is that we raise our baby and be civil, mjolo could wait.

Londeka Deka Gumede

After work I drove straight to Neilwe’s apartment because she was babysitting today. Zendaya gave us a hard time before she could sleep. After the day that I had, all I needed was a bed then it would be lights out. We finished the last batch of dishes then I grabbed a beer and walked to the balcony where Neilwe was. She looked like she was derp in thought.
“Babe are you good?”
“I’m thinking about how far Khumo and I have come. Who would've thought that we would be this close after the pain I put her through? I'm so lucky to have her.” Neilwe.
“Babe we can't change the past, you did your utmost best to get her to forgive you and she did. I think it's time you did the same.”
“You know when I look at Zendaya and Imani, I can only wonder if I would've been a great mother as well. Will I ever become a mother.”
“Ohh ginger don't do that to yourself, it's been years now and you were a child yourself,how were you going to look after those children? You are a mother baby, Zendaya and Imani’s mom. Come here..” she disappeared into my embrace, I kissed her on top of the head. We stayed like this for a while then we looked at the passing cars.
“How did things go with Rachel?” Neilwe.
“Babe I still don't understand how a gorgeous woman like Rachel let hate overpower her like that. Yes I said gorgeous, she and I might have not got along but she was still gorgeous.”
“I never said anything.”
“Your face did all the talking.” I poked her forehead. “She looks like someone who, I don't know how to explain this but she's not the fierce Rachel that I knew. That Rachel no longer exists.”
“Did you at least get what you were looking for?” Neilwe.
“One could say that. I'm ready to accept that Rachel is the reason why Okuhle is not here with us. Such is life.”
“I love you MaGumede.”
“Haibo Keneilwe, yho.”
“Keng baby?”
“MaGumede pho..? It doesn't sound right.”
“What would sound right..?” Neilwe kissed my hand, then the arm and my neck. She flashed her beautiful smile then attacked my lips with a sloppy kiss. She did all that while squeezing my boobs, I let out a breathy moan..
“Neilwe the kids...”
“Asleep..” we went inside with our lips interlocked; clothing was flying around. She pushed me to the couch and straddled me.
“I love you so much Deka.”
“I love you too Neilwe.”
I moved her underwear to the side, then used my thumb to rub her. She didn't need much, just a lot of focus on her clit– soon she would erupt like a volcano.
I slid two fingers still very much focused on her clit. She threw her head back as she squeezed her boobs.
“Deka, Ahh.. dammit!” the door flew open, Khumo and Zakhele walked in. He immediately turned and faced the door.
“I told you that we should knock first, caramel.” Zakhele whispered to Khumo. All she did was giggle.
“We are decent, you can turn around now..” Neilwe said after we put on our clothes. The second Khumo turned around, she and Neilwe had a fit of laughter. Zakhele and I were just staring at them as they laughed.
“I apologize Deka for just rushing in without knocking. Neilwe and I need to learn to knock when visiting. She once caught me and Khoza in a weird situation; that's why we were laughing.” Khumo.
“It’s okay I understand.”
“No it's not!” she said. “Where are my babies?”
“Khumo I told you that you will fetch them in the morning!” Neilwe.
“Ohh, my bad. Khoza let's go then..” Khumo and her husband rushed out of the apartment. Neilwe and I burst into laughter, “that was so awkward babe.”
“Tell me about it. Let's go to bed now, I'm tired.” Neilwe.
“Not even a quick round baby?” I whispered as I squeezed her ass.
“Tomorrow is another day MaGumede.”

Terrence Ndlovu

I was in my room trying to get a hold of Goitsimedi but her line was busy. Either she is asleep or avoiding me after how I spoke to her after her appointment. I didn't mean to raise my voice but I did and regretted it immediately.

Mah kaJunior, I hope you have forgiven me about my rudeness. I didn't mean to shout. I hope you're well. I sent the text.

“Why do you look like someone just stole your girlfriend?” Kayise said entering my room without knocking as usual.
“What if I was masterbating Kayise? You need to learn how to knock.”
She frowned. “Euw Terry.”
“Am I too old to masterbate?”
“No but I don't need to know that you do. That's just, yucky!”
“Knock next time okay.”
“So, Thobile and I have been planning Goitsi’s baby shower. We're planning on doing it at Durban.”
“Why so far?”
“She needs a breather and I heard that there's some 21st they need to cater for at Durban and this would be perfect.”
“Do you know someone called Mabutho?”
“Nope! Who is he?”
“Just asking, now get out it's late and I need my sleep.”
“You such a bore yoh.”
“Hamba!”
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Just when I felt sleepy, my phone rang.
“What did you want Terrence?”
“Are you still angry?”
“No.”
“You sound angry.”
“Then why did you ask in the first place?”
“Just to be a hundred percent sure.”
“Terrence I'm too tired for such nonsense at night. I'm going to sleep now, do the same as well...