SCATTERED

53. Grace's POV

It's been two days and I haven't talked to Sebestian. Today is our anniversary and I didn't thought that this is how I will start this day. Neither Jane nor Adrian told me to talk to him. Everyone is giving me space. I know I should talk to him. Let him explain whatever it was but I am scared. Different thoughts are running in my mind. What if he truly did that? What if he wants to end our relationship? All this questions are making me stressed which is not good for my baby's health. And most important thing I have to tell him about my pregnancy.  We never talked about children before. How will he react to this news? All my thoughts got broke by Jane's voice.

"Grace I brought your clothes and phone". She said. Giving me a bag. She went home to brought my clothes.

"Thanks Jane". I took the bag from her hands.

"And one more thing Sebestian gave me this for you". She passed me an envelope. I opened it saw a letter inside it. Jane smiled at me and left the room giving me privacy. I held the letter close to my heart and took a deep breath before opening it.

Dear Grace,

I know you are very upset with me right now why you shouldn't be even I am upset with myself. Everyone told me to give you space so that you can calm down before talking to me and I agreed with them but I couldn't hold myself anymore that's why I wrote this letter for you. These past days are the worst days of my life because I never felt so alone like this before. I can't express how sorry I am right now. I know I have broken your trust but please baby don't give up on us. I promise to tell you each and every thing when you will meet me but I am not forcing you to do anything. If you want more time then I will wait for you. I can wait for you forever my angel. You don't know how much power you hold over my heart Grace. I will not mind even if you break it into pieces because its yours sweetheart. It became yours since the day I saw you walking down the aisle. You made this playboy who never thought of loving someone fall very hard for you. When I first saw you I felt something. Maybe it was attraction I don't know for sure but above all I felt the urge to protect you from this world. I knew you have gone through something terrible in your past because I read it in your eyes and since then I tried to replace that sorrow with happiness but I failed. I am sorry that I failed you and our relationship but please give me one chance and let me tell you everything and after that whatever will be your decision I will gladly accept it because you taught me that love is selfless. If you don't want to be with me than will accept your decision because for me nothing is more important than your happiness. You know I always thought about protecting you from world but in the end I was unable to protect you from myself. I became the reason behind your pain. I can't even imagine what you have gone through and it broke my heart because I was not there to hold you when you cried. I am sorry because I can't write anymore. I love you my wife for the rest of my life and one more thing don't think I forget what is today. Happy anniversary Grace. How can I forget the day where you became my better half. I love you.
Always.

Only yours
Sebestian.

I didn't realised I was crying until I felt moisture on my hands. I wiped my cheeks and got up from the bed. I quickly washed my face and changed the clothes to go to him. I can't let my insecurities and doubts ruin our relationship. I need to talk to him. He deserves this chance. As I came out of the room I saw Adrian and Jane sitting in the living room talking about something. They stopped and looked at me.