You And Me || Kuroken

•2• kenma

Present day . . .

I get back from therapy and I feel like shit. My head hurts and I feel horrible. Dr Goto said since he upped my dose then I'd have some major side effects but I said it was worth it. At least I'm not dead.

I lay down on my bed, wrapping myself up in a blanket. I woddle over to my closet and bring out my favourite shirt. Kuroo's first year volleyball jersey. I know it's cringey but I'm a sentimental person, I remember when he won his first tournament he was wearing this, he said it was my cheering it on that helped him win but I think he's just a really good player.

I pull the jersey over my head and recover myself with the blanket. I reach for my phone, video calling Kuroo. "Hey kitten, how ya feeling?" He said, his grin making me smile for a millisecond. "I feel horrible. The doctor upped my daily dose so now I just feel like I'm high but also in a lot of pain." I frowned, my head sinking into my pillow.
"Awh, darling. I'm sorry. Are you at least... Happier? Now that you are actually getting help I mean. I don't want you feeling like you did back in October. I sighed, I hate talking about October. Worst month ever.

"You promised we wouldn't have to talk about that." I said, memories flushing back like a wave. "I know but you can't run away from it forever. It's a big deal, it changed everything. I know it's unpleasant to hear kitten.. but we're all worried about you, all the time. That's why I call you so much at night, to make sure you're.. well, alive." His confession made tears well up in my eyes as I look away from the camera. "well I'm fine, so don't bother calling me tonight" I said with certainty, hanging up. I know I'm being a bitch but I'm not in the mood to be nice.

I flip onto my back and sigh. I always do this. I say rude shit or Im a bitch and then people leave, it's a miracle I've kept kuroo all these years. I feel the tears in my eyes draw lines down my face as I picture kuroo. Worried sick and alone. I text him

Me : ... I'm sorry that was wrong of me to say. Ik ur worried and I appreciate it...

Kuroo : it's fine kitten, I know you're under a lot of pressure rn. Get a good night's rest , if not call me and I'll stay on call for as long as you like.

I smile. I know I can always count on kuroo. He's always there no matter what, I couldn't live without him.

My mom bursts into my room. "Kenma !! We're going out for dinner with Mr and Mrs Kuroo. Get dressed, it's a fancy restaurant so don't dress like a slob." She warned, I rolled my eyes which only got me a scolding in response.

After she left, I searched through my closet and grabbed the most formal thing I had, a plain white button up and trousers I got for my aunt's wedding a few months ago, I hadn't worn them since. As I slide of Kuroo's jersey, I avoid looking at myself as much as I could. But when it was unavoidable the pink scars on my pale skin stood out more than usual on my upper arms. Sickness overtook my stomach and I closed my eyes.

Once I managed to complete the dreadful task of getting changed, I headed down stairs to see everyone was waiting on me, which made me feel a little guilty for taking my time getting dressed. 'Hi, Mr and Mrs kuro.' I said shyly, I'm not sure why, I've known these guys basically my whole life. 'Oh, no need to be so formal dear! Think of this as just hanging out with friends, you know, chillin' she chuckled, I also chuckled at her attempt to be cool.

Kuroo walked into the room, I now felt over dressed seeing that he had in jeans with a regular black t shirt. 'Oh, hey kitten!' He smiled at me, coming over for a hug. My face turns red as I hug him back. 'you're embarrassing me' I whine, he puts on a faux offended face. 'im wounded'. We both start to chuckle. His mom makes us snap a few photos before we get in the car. Mom lets me bring my switch so I have something to do, ever since October she's been insistant on keeping my anxiety levels low, meaning I get more distractions in public places. I have a creeping suspicion it's just to stop me from embarrassing her though.

I rest my head on Kuroo's shoulder his arm around me as he admires the view outside. Whilst I admire him, the way the setting sun hits hit face with a golden glow, the way his lips curl upwards into a smile whenever he sees a cute little cafe or a bookshop and points it out to me, suggesting it as a date. I hate dates but I tolerate them because kuroo loves it, I'm not too much of a "going out" guy. I'd prefer to stay at home with him. Kuroo notices me staring and looks over at me with a smirk, I quickly advert my gaze back to my console, kuroo placing a small kiss on my forehead.

When we get to the restaurant, we are lead to a booth for 6 and given menus. I sit next to kuroo and across from my mom, my eyes fixated on the pink and purple pixels on my screen, focusing on getting past the next level which had proven quite the task in itself. The waiter comes and I panic, I don't even know what I want. I quickly scan the menu. Kuroo leans in and whispers to me 'do you want me to order for you?' I nodded and pointed to the salmon I wanted.

"And what will you be ordering sir?" The waiter said to kuroo, prepared to jot down what he says. "I'll have the lasagna and he'll have the smoked salmon, please' he said, she nodded and wrote down our orders. The second she left I let out a sigh of relief I didnt even know I was holding in. Kuroo leans his arms in around me as our moms have an excited look on their faces.

"So... What do you think ab-"
"A graduation party!!" Mrs Kuroo interrupted my mom, bubbling with excitement, unlike me. "Oh, uhm.. sure. If you want." I say. Despite me being in introvert, I don't actually mind parties. I think with the right people they can be fun. "We were thinking because your birthday is on the day of your graduation ceremony, we could celebrate a little! Maybe even have your first legal drink' kuroo joked, I chuckled. 'i like the idea of a party, but I don't know enough people for it to be a proper party.' I say in a pessimistic way. Kuroo reassures me he can invite people. "And the great part is, me and your stepdad will be out on a business trip that night after the ceremony so the whole house is yours. As long as every thing is in tact when I come back, I want you to have the full highschool house party experience!" She paused a little before continuing. ".. I think hanging out with some fresh faces will help you, you've been cut off from people the last few months and I want you to use this as an opportunity to socialize more" I hate that this whole plan was probably just to get me to socialize, but when I see the look of joy on my mom's face when I agreed, it made it all go away.

When the food came, I was almost asleep already and it was only nine o'clock. I struggled to lift my heavy eyelids even to eat as I listened in on the conversation of what type of confetti my party should have: paper or shiny. I wasn't too bothered but kuroo was adamant that we had shiny. "A special occasion calls for special confetti!" He argued, my stepdad agreeing with him. I ended the argument by saying you mix them both together.

When I finished my salmon, everyone else was just finished with their dessert and I was no longer hungry, so we decided to leave. I thanked Mr and Mrs Kuroo for paying for the meal.

"Do you want to have a sleepover tonight?" Kuroo asked as we got in the car. I looked over at my mom, who nodded and then I turned back to kuroo. "Yeah.. sure, I'm fine with that" I gave him a faint smile, to which he swooned with great exaggeration as a joke, which made me giggle.