AN INEQUITABLE LOVE

Just another day!

Evening chai and SidNaaz had a long connection as it stirred their feelings for each other the last time they sat together in Goa. The two of them sat in the basket chairs placed in Shehnaaz's balcony with two fresh cups of strong chai as they inhaled the calm yet stirring smell of wet soil just after a rain. It was quite unsual to rain in December but Odisha and cyclones is a never ending relationship. Shehnaaz had deep fried some pakode according to the latter's liking as they chatted along when she took out a certain someone's book.

Shehnaaz looked quite disturbed to Sidharth for the last two days. It had been all cheerful since the day they confessed but she somewhere looked tensed. He again sat contemplating her actions but she looked quite opposite then. "What happened Sana?", he asked to which she replied asking him to guess about the next chapter of her favourite book. Sidharth wanted her to open up. He had lately realized how big of an introvert Shehnaaz was and he would have to work really very hard to make her open up to him.

"Acha Shehnaaz tell me! Why do you read this book?Just like you said, isme toh twists itne aate hain, tumhe darr nahi lagta next chapter padhne mein?", Sidharth asked looking into her eyes.

Shehnaaz settled herself properly in the chair. Putting the strand of her behind her ear she said taking a sip of her tea," Nahi lagta and that's because I trust the author. Tension toh bohot hoti hai mujhe but I know that things will end well. I've read various books of his and I trust him", she replied taking various sips more to finish the tea before it got cold.

"It's all limited to the books na, darling. Thoda sa escape milta but then when back to life phir pange hi pange", chuckled Sidharth who just like Shehnaaz took bigger sips now.

"I know, I know but it's all what you think. People might not agree with me and I don't even necessarily want that but life's a fairytale for me now. I mean, pehle mai bhi nahi maanti thi but I believe in it now. A fairytale where I'm mine own prince charming.Sidharth, I've always believed that koi nahi aane wala mere liye", she stopped for a second seeing hurt flash on his face. Pushing her chair closer to his she continued, "Not that tumhe bol rahi but it's true that we are opne's who have to fight. Our people can just support us, ladai toh khud hi ladni hai na, Sidharth. Agar ladai bhi unhone ladli toh usme mera kya hua? Na meri jeet aur naa hi meri haar", Shehnaaz looked up at a smiling Sidharth who kissed her forehead. He encircled his arm around her head, pushinh her to his chest while he patted her head. Once, twice and thrice! "Ahh!", Sidharth pulled back his hand when Shehnaaz who had pinched him there said, "Kutte, insaan hoon mai, yeh aadhi aadhi pappiyan kisse de raha?"

"Cute hai bey tu", he said with a straight face. They stayed in silence for some time when the rain started. Shehnaaz got up to inside when Sidharth held her palm and signalled her to sit. She sat on the small wooden table just infront of him as he continued. "It's the same this way, love! I'm so happy to see you grow but I want you to keep this in mind that you are your own author and you get to plan your story. Yeh hai bas ki isme twist and turns ka hume pata nahi but we can always shape them with how we handle them. I want you to believe in yourself baaki I'm here. Never lose yourself for anyone, not even me. I donb't know what's bothering you for I want you to say it out yourself. I know that you will lekin mai bas yeh bataana chahta that I can make out when you are not okay. So bataane se katraana nahi hai". Sidharth smiled as she suddenly hugged him tight and mumbled a thank-you. She could't tell him then but she knew that she also could not keep herself from telling him. "I will, baby!", she called him "that" name when he was taken by surprise. "Look who's blushing like a tamatar", said a blushing Sidharth who looked at the beauty infront with crimson cheeks.

" I trust the next chapter because I know the author"

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"I'll have to stay back today na baba", Sidharth said over a call to Shehnaaz while she was in no mood for a no. "Why Sidharth? Why not here?", she argued. "Mom's coming baba. Shreya already doesn't treat her well. We have a party tomorrow at my place, office members ke saath and some close people. I'll come to take yu tomorrow. Bas kal shaam tak wait karna baba".

"Stay with your wife", she shouted at disconnected the call.Sidharth felt that she acted very unreasonable for Sidharth had no choice but to stay at his place. The prime reason being his mother's arrival and he had not yet informed her about his confession. He did not forget anything. He knew he had to take care of Shreya too and would talk to her in some days for sure for his mother's words constantly rang in his head. He couldn't do injustice to Shehnaaz atleast for she deserved it all clean. Well, one does have to pay for a famous life too for he could not afford to let even a bit of the present situation leak for the media industry would not think once before creating a havoc. It was actually amusing how Shreya being so open about her love life managed to hide things from the world. Sources, you see!

Shehnaaz on the other hand too felt that she went overboard witrh her reaction but thinking about him and Shreya felt like not just being stabbed with a knife but the knife being twisted giving deeper cuts in her gut. She hated the feeling. She hated being jealous. She felt terrible to see herself as the "mistress" or so would the world term her. Having realized his popularity made her happy but had deepdown planted a seed of fear in her which she didn't know would dir or grow into a plant. It was also known to her for a fact that her thoughts would not be appriciated by Sidharth at all but her mind could not help but think about it.  

" I hate  being like this Sidharth", she mumbled.

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