Heartbeat (ON-HOLD)

Chapter 11.

Yumi's POV

Avoiding my bestfriend makes my heart suffer more.

It's almost summer, meaning school year's going to end. First year's going to end.

Bianca and I are still not okay. We are not talkjng for a month now. Wow. Paano ko nakayanan?

You think I moved on already? Ha! Kalokohan tangina!

Gago. Mas lalong lumalim yung nararamdaman ko sa kanya.

I need to talk to her. Kailangan ko nang ayusin to. Ayoko ko siya mawala sa akin.

I'm fine with just being her bestfriend kaysa naman sa wala.

Sobrang namimiss ko na siya.

Sobra....

I am busy reviewing my notes since next next week will be our final exam.

"Anak." I look at mom. She's terrified? Why?

"Mom? Bakit po?" Tanong ko

"Your----- Dad!" She said shaking.

What about him? I felt scared.

"What is it Mom? Is he bothering you again?" I asked

"No. But he's asking about you" sabi nito

"Anak natatakot ako" dagdag nito.

Napuno nang galit ng puso ko.

If you're curious as to why I am mad!
He left us for another woman. A woman who has also a family. Hindi ko kilala yung babae at wala akong balak kilalanin kung sino man yon.

That man! Ayaw niya dati akong pasamahin kay mommy pabalik dito sa Pilipinas, isasama niya daw ako sa US to live with his fucking mistress and his mistress' family. Ang gago lang.

Hinayaan niya akong makasama kay mom pero sabi niya after Elementary, kukunin niya din daw ako. Pero dahil highd school na ako. I thought wala nang bisa yung contract. Shet.

Akala ko nakalimutan na niya dahil wala siyang paramdam sa amin. Ni tawag wala! Tapos ngayon. Fuck!

Natatakot ako. Wala kaming laban sa Dad ko dahil yun ang nakalagay sa papel kaya napayagan akong sumama kay Mom. Shit.

"Mom! Kukunin na po ba niya ako?" Tanong ko

"I- I don't know anak. Sana hindi pa. Sana hindi na." Sabi ni mom.

"Bakit di mo ako ipaglaban Ma. You have a stable job. Kaya namn natin na tayong dalawa lang diba? Kaya naman natin kahit wala siyang binibigay?" Sabi ko dito.

Fuck.

My mom's crying so hard

"Meng anak! I'm sorry but----- all the expenses are paid by your father." Sabi nito

What? She have a job?

"May work ka mom right?" Tanong ko. I'm confused

"Yes. But I'm working for your father. So basically, everything we have, this house, your car, your allowance, is your father's money. Yumi anak, hindi---- hindi kita kayang buhayin kapag tinanggal ako ng Dad mo sa trabaho. Wala akong pinag aralan, high school lang natapos ko. Inaalala ko lang ang future mo anak" hagulhol na sabi nito

Fuck.

This is so fucked up. Whyyy?

"Ma. I can work naman. Please. Mom" sabi ko dito

"You're still young anak. Kapag pinagtrabaho kita, mas lalong makakahanap ng dahilan ang Papa mo para hindi na kita makita pa. Anak, kaya mo naman diba? Do it for yourself and me. Magkikita pa naman tayo. Yun ang usapan namin ng Dad mo na every holidays, dito ka sa akin. Kasi anak kapag pinilit natin ang gusto natin, mas lalong mawawalan ako ng karapatan sa'yo." Sabi nito while hugging me.